Self Medicate

You know it Seems like i just up and quit Nah I just had to get my head right You know if you don't give a f*ck about what’s being said in this song I don't care I just got to get this shit off my chest So here we go Back at the shit again Im coming into this with a different mind set Not looking to be anyones friend F*ck off my head isnt right and i know that it ain't screwed on tight Everyone thought last time was the end Ended with the dangerous EP then no one saw me Had alot of shit happen in just a few years Crazy I know that i sheded some tears Hoping i can hide it so no one hears In July Lost a beloved angel that was painful Something i always feared in this life time Still born shit still hurts feels like four steel swords ramming into my fucking spinal cord Running into problems feeling like life or death With My head racing, these thoughts, i got something to confess Like putting a gun to my head and fill it with lead Somehow my wife caught it Picked my self back up and fought it Hit life with an upper cut Fighting my way back to the top Now im back in my spot Justins back at it again so go ahead and pull up your chairs You got shit to say, i dont care Until you show up sayin that shit to my face Sit your ass down and just hop off my case Beat your ass to a pulp i won’t leave no trace If thats what you want just come to my place My goal thru my music is to let people know there is someone that can relate to them Not for the fame and money I get a paycheck for serving this country with or without this music Could it be youre mad that you ain't puttin out twice the effort With the shit you do I believe death would be first I have a purpose here on earth Dont think ive found it yet My life blacking out like a vignette God throwing hardshits at me like a bet Setting me up for failure i wonder if hes even there Stare for hours and get nothing back I always run back to my music I apologize for the confusion Don't be mad at me I'm only human Told you back in 2015 I had Queit Rage Now my lid is poped and everything has changed The anger inside is getting louder and louder Had to look up to the sky for the higher power With all the pills from the va that I'm taking I had to turn to self medicating Not the kind that Sedating Raining down on me is stress Its building so much on my shoulders i dont get any rest I try my best so i introduce you into my life as a guest My heart can't express how I'm feeling right now With this life I know it feels like a test With the anger that's manifested inside me The only thing I want for me is to be is set free Just back off and let me be Be Damn Just let me be Don’t f*ck with me that’s fine that's cool Just let me be me This right here self medicating 2019 And if you got anything to say Just hit me up