In My Head

I'm too addicted to numbing the pain I hate feeling, so I'm fogging up my brain Its always bright out, like to me it never rains I'm livin life by the balance which it hangs I swear that this high is my fuel My vices been feeling so crucial I don't know who to trust My mind is confused Just Look me in the eyes and be truthful Don't let your thoughts tear you down and abuse you I promise i love you If you tell me you love me And i say that i don't want to lose you Would you tell me the feeling is mutual I lie to your face and I tell you the usual Take shots to the face i just don't wanna hear it A storm in my head got my mind so delusional Feel like I'm in the spotlight but no one is cheering To cure my depression i create illusions And i just been fighting those demons And you always jump to conclusions I swear it ain't easy It's hard to explain let me clear the confusion I've been smoking heavy All my drinks are deadly Broken heart no remedy Cold heart, no sympathy I just wanna get rid of me You say that your sick of me All the pain it gets me Roll a game it don't get to me I'm too addicted to numbing the pain I hate feeling, so I'm fogging up my brain Its always bright out, like to me it never rains I'm livin life by the balance which it hangs I drown in the liquor, its gotten abusive Yeah I've been abusing And i have been using and taking Your heart is amusing and dangerous Just picture these words that I'm painting And try to imagine the love isn't fading I know that you tired of the playing I know that you tired of me saying I'm sorry, the record is broken And i was just hopin My effort is noticed I have been feeling so hopeless This is ain't the right way to cope with This pain that I'm feeling And i have been praying for healing I probably don't even deserve it These thoughts In my head got me nervous I hate who I am as a person But i cannot quit that's for certain Behind the curtains i drop all my worries then leave it All up to the bourbon I've been smoking heavy All my drinks are deadly Broken heart no remedy Cold heart, no sympathy I just wanna get rid of me You say that your sick of me All the pain it gets me Roll a game it don't get to me I'm too addicted to numbing the pain I hate feeling, so I'm fogging up my brain Its always bright out, like to me it never rains I'm livin life by the balance which it hangs