Trying

Okay, okay, well let's get it What you gon' say, shit, I don't know I done seen the darkest roads I stayed in vacant apartments Probably spent more time there than in my home I love the places, I'm unknown More times than not, I'm on the road Just hit my signal, cause you never know who intercept this phone To B&Bs, shit, I don't go I stand on every single toe I get it fast, but I remember times when I would get it slow I'm back and forth to bring the load I disappear like where I go Never been to jail, but I've been close I count my blessings, I don't boast, And I think I'm the biggest in my city I don't know who fuckin' with me Like what's a civic to a semi I spit that raw shit ain't no Jimmy Ain't gotta touch for you to feel me Heard he got a touched, but ain't no pity I could walk inside a room of deaf people and bet they hear me You couldn't even walk inside these shoes I duck the sweep like I got brooms Thank all the obstacles been through I lost my leg, but I still troop I got the strength of all the brutes I need a banner this ain't bruce They wanna hang, but ain't got noose Only got a hand to inroduce I won't lie I've been trying my whole life Hurting my heart and I'm straining my mind Death isn't easy, but so is being alive I done been through the hardest and darkest of times No, I'm not proud of the things that I've done And I think my whole family know I've been the one Look in the mirror, ask what I've become If I could do it all over, I'd probably still jump Like please, stay away from judging me I know I'm not perfect, but I played the cards that's dealt to me And I can't blame my parents cause they wanted me to get degrees They tried to keep me focused, but I chose to live a life of speed The books in class not built for me But I'm well-versed in chemistry It took a couple years for you, for me it took a couple weeks I heat it till it's tender Mannitol it's all in the blender Stevia or another Whatever's the trending color And the process be smooth as butter I've been trying my whole life Hurting my heart and I'm straining my mind Death isn't easy, but so is being alive I done been through the hardest and darkest of times No, I'm not proud of the things that I've done And I think my whole family know I've been the one Look in the mirror, ask what I've become If I could do it all over, I'd probably still jump I've been trying my whole life Hurting my heart and I'm straining my mind Death isn't easy, but so is being alive I done been through the hardest and darkest of times No, I'm not proud of the things that I've done And I think my whole family know I've been the one Look in the mirror, ask what I've become If I could do it all over, I'd probably still jump