Feel lost too

Yeah, this the vibe, yeah Yo, I said, light up a J if you want to Most days I feel lost too Clowns around, no costume Clown around, that might cost you Light up a J if you want to Most days I feel lost too Clowns around, no costume Clown around, that might cost you I don't know what I'm doing I know it's stupid But I'm going through it, acting like I'm used to it Like shit don't phase me I lost my brother and my uncle That shit got me going crazy Now I'm feeling alone My brother was sudden and my uncle saw it coming I didn't pick up the phone I'm wrong for that, I know that I wish I could rewind time just to call back Why is it the motion I lack but never on the track Y'all push me and act like I shouldn't react So I feel the safest when I detach Roll that whole zigzag pack Oh Lord, I need healing from my trauma I'm seeing all this pain in my mama Right out of bed, I walk into drama They gave my man a long sentence, no karma Light up a J if you want to Most days I feel lost too Clowns around, no costume Clown around, that might cost you Light up a J if you want to Most days I feel lost too Clowns around, no costume Clown around, that might cost you Try to use my penny wise, cause this ain't it Try to have patience, but it's paper thin That's why I get high, when I need a lift I'm just waiting on my shot, hoping I don't miss If Sal was here he'd say John, you better take that shit I hear him, but some days I just wanna quit Grandfathers in heaven yelling, I did it my way I'ma do it the same, no matter what the scales weigh I just light up a J to even me out Hit up notti he's already, rolling the loud I swear we got the illest sound out of a town We took it to a level over the clouds Got away from the clowns, away from the circus Now I'm seeing who's down, completing the circuit Introverted, I was the hermit, ready to surface Light it up like a furnace, putting that work in Light up a J if you want to Most days I feel lost too Clowns around, no costume Clown around, that might cost you Light up a J if you want to Most days I feel lost too Clowns around, no costume Clown around, that might cost you