Starting Over

Elevate Baby Yea Few times over Yo Penhouse Yea I've hit rock bottom a few times over It's hard but I'm tryna stay sober Lost in my feelings Girl will you come over I'd be lying if I said All I wanna do is hold ya I just need you right now to comfort me Dealing with these feelings that I'm confronting It's like a war inside me I'm a soldier It's like Call of Duty Respawning Man I hate starting over I know last time I said it'd be the last time I know trusting what I say is probably asinine But my past keep me stuck It's like I'm trapped in time Can't get over the trauma but man I have to try Cuz I Can't live like this no more It's either change my ways Or don't live no more And I ain't tryna choose the latter Know my disease is lying when it say I don't matter Man them xannys turned my life to a disaster Every time I relapse the bottom hits faster I know recovery's an inside job But inside my soul there's mad demons dog I've hit rock bottom a few times over It's hard but I'm tryna stay sober Lost in my feelings Girl will you come over I'd be lying if I said All I wanna do is hold ya I just need you right now to comfort me Dealing with these feelings that I'm confronting It's like a war inside me I'm a soldier It's like Call of Duty Respawning Man I hate starting over Please help I can't do this alone But it's so fuckin hard just to pick up the phone When I do All I ever get is the tone I look for you But I don't ever find my way home Oh noo Trust me things can get ugly Even in my own skin I never get comfy In this meeting surrounded by custys Ain't like them I just need someone to love me Taking addies tryna stay focused But I'm still moving in slow motion Suicidal in my self loathing Cuz I used all my serotonin I've hit rock bottom a few times over It's hard but I'm tryna stay sober Lost in my feelings Girl will you come over I'd be lying if I said All I wanna do is hold ya I just need you right now to comfort me Dealing with these feelings that I'm confronting It's like a war inside me I'm a soldier It's like Call of Duty respawning Man I hate starting over Bitch