Grow

Yeah I'm feeling free I'm feeling me I can't complain Thinking for myself I'm feeling sane There was once a day When I always felt the need to explain But these days don't quite feel the same It's some things that I wanna see And right now it's all internal It only got to do with me I'm turning back to my journal I'm trying to spark my memory It's some things I tucked away Got me feeling like decay If I still refuse to say I really believed self care was selfish I was 16 when I found out I was allergic to shell fish Something's you learn late and that's easy to do When it's a lot on your plate and you trying not to be rude It's generational Raised by the folks that you tied to Living for others make you forget you gotta die too Trying to downplay everything I feel inside Had to open my eyes and realize I wanna fly too All of my life I had to fight (Yeah) On 68th your enemy knocked you off your bike (Yeah) Gotta match that energy or you can't go home tonight (Yeah) I then made it to the mic, I've been training my whole life (Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah) And I just wanna chill and grow here Letting down my hair, I just wanna flow here Gotta learn to be without the conditions Gotta learn to breathe without the permissions I knew the day would come when I would get fed up It's hard to work towards something you're in great dread of Speaking of I don't play the blame game too much My own thoughts keep me jumping back and forth Like it's double dutch Had to settle up with myself Now I'm headed up You know you gotta go inward just to level up Got the good and bad in my genes, tired of dressing up But I'm only me so welcome to the making of Yeah, I'm breaking bad Bad habits if you ask me Word to Corona How y'all sick and trying to mask me Yeah, I'm living blessed Hardly stressed cause I'm task free If you want the ropes better ask me This the part where everyone gone swear I changed I ain't work that hard just to stay the same Had to chill and heal so I didn't project my pain And had to take a different route so I don't end up there again All of my life I had to fight (Yeah) On 68th your enemy knocked you off your bike (Yeah) Gotta match that energy or you can't go home tonight (Yeah) I then made it to the mic, I've been training my whole life (Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah) And I just wanna chill and grow here Letting down my hair, I just wanna flow here Gotta learn to be without the conditions Gotta learn to breathe without the permissions J, what you talking bout? Well let me slow it up Talking bout the choices you making when you growing up See, I been holding up, I just keep on showing up Growth with my name on it & I ain't been owning up Nah I'ma late bloomer, but I'ma straight shooter Some things I wish I would've known sooner But when you know better, you do better Even if that ain't together Some roads I've walked alone But look at how much I have grown I offer no apologies, no my bad's, it's all on me's Swear it's all love, but those burdens were so tiring Heard the man above love me in my entirety Had me second guessing what I needed from society I'm proud of me I'm going for my dreams and betting it all on me Kind of in between right now and where I'm 'bout to be Twenty something's were wild, I'm no longer a child The beauty of a heart & a soul reconciled All of my life I had to fight (Yeah) On 68th your enemy knocked you off your bike (Yeah) Gotta match that energy or you can't go home tonight (Yeah) I then made it to the mic, I've been training my whole life (Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah) And I just wanna chill and grow here Letting down my hair, I just wanna flow here Gotta learn to be without the conditions Gotta learn to breathe without the permissions