419/Done

Tell me that I'm useless and tell me that you hate me Oh please be ruthless just claim that I was faking All the shit I said and done, I guess it was nothing I was who you'd turn and run to for the loving She said, I'm an addict of love Maybe cuz I just ain't had it enough And life keeps crashing ships that I'm a passenger of God damn it's all of these signs from above And maybe I'd better off just walking away I swear as of late its getting harder to pray I'm sinning day and night while I'm locked in brain All i had was my words but now i got nothing to say And this really isn't writers block i just lost my muse I'm living with these hopeless thoughts mocking all the fools 4 fingers point at me I’ll blame it all on you The 1 thing I feared happening now is coming to 9 times out of 10 I'm taking 2 steps back 7 sleepless nights ain't nothing new in that 419 then a relapse, 419 then I relapse I'm searching for a soul let it slip through the cracks Crazy how my future is now for the past But before I let it go, I just gotta ask Do I still cross your mind? was it bad all the time? If I had one more chance What would I change? What would I keep? Maybe when we were changing Its fine I've grieved If I had one more chance What would I change? What would I keep? Maybe when we were changing Its fine I've grieved Tell me that you love me, tell me that I'm worth it Need you to hold me as I look for a purpose I've been really lonely so I turned to soul searching I just got a question, am I a good person? Can I catch a break as these tables keep turning Feelings I done faked just to say I wasn't hurting But tell me..is it too late? And tell me it wasn't that great? I don't have an ego I just care what you think If you owe any favors I'd like to cash in Time is running out so tell me what you think Lately its been my vices taking over the righteousness Pain filling these nights I'm reliving all my fights i guess Been to hell and back for the one that sent me there Did it on my free will so blaming her isn't fair For the world I pretend that truly I didn't care I'm choking on false pretense coolly gasping for air Guess I had my downfalls, must've done somethin' wrong Seems I'm only good enough when the time is long gone Tired of chasing stupid dreams consider this a swan song I'm done with this habit of musi...