Dear God

Dear God I know it's been a while we don't talk a lot I need to see a sign if you been here or not Dear God I know it's been a while we don't talk a lot I'm weak i need some help Are you here or not Cause lately I been feeling like you skippin out Outta town Turn around don't you understand your people need you now Where the f*ck were you when we were searching for Maleah You expect for me to trust that that shit happened for a reason Vision ain't the best but 20/20 couldn't see it I'm just speaking for the people who find struggle in believing But really though just tell me what the f*ck you been achieving I mean I mean did Vegas need to happen Were you chillin there and watching as your people all got blasted You allow these situations to result in true disaster Yeah you call us all your children but I'm feeling like a bastard I'm feeling like a bastard Abandoned How the hell did you let half of this happen People pray yo they been buggin and naggin To a father that we're told to love endlessly but the man has been absent Missing in action what happened I guess the rules were never fully established It's okay though we can wait There's only been a shooting every other day And all these missing kids yo they just runaways huh I think enough is enough I been fighting for my faith but I been waiting for what I mean just take a look around see what the world has become All this chaos going on can make the devil blush Dear God I know it's been a while we don't talk a lot I need to see a sign if it you been here or not Dear God I know it's been a while we don't talk a lot I'm weak I need some help Are you here or not Is everything part of your bigger plan or is there shit that happens even you would call an accident When grandma had departed did it line up with thought out events cause nigga if it did shit I don't wanna believe you exist Lemme refresh your memory cause you probably don't remember every moment of tragedy January 17 2020 you let her leave but it's how you let it happen is what's having me questioning Did my father have to watch as they were breaking her chest Did my father have to watch as they put tubes down her neck Pumping air into her lungs to try and give her a breath Defibrillator pulses made her eyes roll back in her head My aunts and uncle crying as they had to watch their mother in her moment of dying Doctors couldn't bring her back but still they continued the trying until my father shut it down he knew there was no horizon I was the last to reach the hospital don't make any sense I was due in court accused of crimes that I ain't commit Saw the message hours late my eyes beginning to mist As I called my dad to get the news my grandma was dead God what I don't understand correct me if I'm mistaken My grandma always wore an issued DNR bracelet Ain't no way she took it off herself I know it was taken Why did you allow that nurse to f*ck up on the medication Dear God I know it's been a while we don't talk a lot I need to see a sign if it you been here or not Dear God I know it's been a while we don't talk a lot I'm weak I need some help Are you here or not