Therapy (feat. Serg)

I'm not doing this rapping shit to be a "rapper" I'm doing this for motivational purposes only I know from the outside looking in everything seems like it's always "all good" and positive But with this, I'm giving y'all the real me The 100% raw, the uncut, the rated R version of my life and my thoughts This is a form of therapy for me This shit gives me the opportunity to externalize all my emotions Along with some of the biggest battles I Face on a daily basis So ima leave y'all with this Never let fear make any of your decisions Stay solid, never fold, and be 100% you 100% of the time So many blessings but still I'm in a dark place Anxiety I'm feeling got my checking on my heart rate Battling depression, fighting everyday man I'm tired of all this stressing Lord I got so many questions A lot of things I wonder, Will i ever get an answer Why i lose my aunt to this bitch named cancer How these other dudes make it and they don't go as hard as me Gave this game my heart even down to my arteries Why the good die young I'm thankful that I'm breathing Does everything really always happen for a reason was it in the plan when you made me miss that season Half a million followin they still fucking sleeping Feel like it's nothing but evil that's surrounding me Hard to catch a breath why I feel like it's drowning me Starting writing raps just to help with me my mental That's why I'm letting out my pain on this instrumental F*ck my girl to sleep then I go and grab the pencil Listen up I'm writing bout all the shit I been through Despite all the bullshit that come with life Still Talk to god before I sleep pray I make through the night Devil telling me to quit won't go down without a fight Shit It's dark up in this tunnel but at the end I see the light Put my city back 860 on the map TLB in my veins so I went and got a tat Living life all in fear of anxiety attacks It's like I'm walking thin ice any moment it can crack It's like I'm trapped Do I want it all to really end Shit we started off as brothers but now we hardly friends These are the thoughts I be thinking alone Everything that shine ain't always gon be gold And I be going through shit you ain't know Gotta stand strong on my own I won't fold This was never a part of my plan I just took whatever god put in my hand I fell a lot in the end I'm gon stand Let the marathon continue I'm saying This that dollar and a dream shit That believing in yourself when nobody believed it Never take no handouts promise you don't need it Wonder why you ain't make it double check your reasons My passion is what's got me to this point Scared they'll never bump my shit cuz I never rolled a joint And I ain't never drink no lie I'm grinding never in the mix Built this shit from ground up brick by brick Hope your homies never fold pray that they never switch It was the ones that was closest to me tried to take my chick Evaluate your circle who you label as your clique Just Remember Paid in Full and what Rico did to Mitch Life gon knock you on your ass just make sure you never quit Wanna chase yo dreams but you too scared to take the risk Man I bet y'all wanna just skip the whole process Want the end results but could give a f*ck about the progress Let that just digest I'm tired of holding shit in One thing I'll never is fucking TRY to fit in Tryna save a generation when I know it can't be saved These 9-5's got us shackled like we modern day slaves To y'all the grind is trendy to me that shit engraved Changed my whole fucking life when coach didnt let me play That same passion for game then transitioned to weights Made the choice to quit the team TLB started the next day