RESIDUE

I don't wanna bring back pain, I remember All of that well, was trapped in hell's center Tell me who sent ya, my angel, my friend My plug, my drug dealer, with me 'til the end Lament, "I must heal ya" That's what she whispered to me She sends a vision through me Here's how she did this to me She plants that seed inside my head I can't think straight, I need my meds Too weak to live, too scared to die here Always reminded, I'm soaked in my tears Holding on to what I know They don't know how dark it gets I need change, I need peace I can't find either, help me out of this well I've fallen into Just give me, five minutes of your time and accept my dime That last hit, I'll be next in line For the residue, yeah the residue She was the greatest thing you ever knew For the residue, yeah, the residue Until there's barely any human left of you Trying to think back, when did this all change? Feeling trapped in this addict's game Put a spark to this lighter fluid on high octane Trying to - piece together how this trauma shaped my brain You make it harder to do it, hardly lucid, hard to the touch I can't move it, a harder life only made for harder mothafuckin' music So it wasn't in vain, it wasn't useless Years of telling myself I'm just a nuisance Every day it gets so much harder to do this Every day it gets so much harder to do this There's pain in my breath, blood in my mucus A life well lived received love that wasn't ruthless Holding on to what I know They don't know how dark it gets For the residue, yeah the residue She was the greatest thing you ever knew For the residue, yeah the residue Until there's barely any human left of you