Bad Day

I wish I could explain all my thoughts Seems like I'm going back and forth I don't even know where to begin One moment I'll feel fine The next my soul is trying to break free Trying to take all there is to me I continue to cover my skin with ink all around me To leave no room for scars to come haunt me Leave no opportunity for self harming As normal as things may seem Every second of the day my thoughts eat alive at me They devour me inside I don't think I'll ever be fine This is not a cry for help Don't be confused i just need to say I.T out loud It's just another bad day I won't always know why These tears are rolling down my face Asking me if I'm okay But these are my only way I can't control them I can't make I.T stop It's not like I don't want to be okay But i can't be okay Because i don't know the reason Why these tears have come to play these games It's crazy how i cry Without feeling the pain And it's getting harder to explain And my fam man they love me So why am I feeling this way The worst is when they go in for a to hug me And you feel the tears roll down your face Because they want to give you love But you can't feel a thing The warmth of someone's touch, but your ice cold Everything is so cold How can I feel so alone Everyone around me They want to see me happy But i can't seem to be happy Damn what is happening Why are things so difficult Why can't I just smile And he happy for a while But instead I get lost in the thoughts And I lose sight of my way And I lose sight of the day And I want to run away Hide away Drown my self in tears today Trying understand Why the walls are caving in And no one can help me Because this battles within me And only I can fight these demons They keep coming back with or without reason I can wake up perfectly fine But then on that car ride Catch myself pouring out my tears Listening to Witt Lowry He's Telling me" If you want the change, you gotta be the change Now we're all the same Nobody wanna take the reins Nobody wanna push their brain Nobody will admit that they're fake for the facts they claim" Everything's he's spitting is the facts I feel everything he says in his raps He doesn't care for the money and the fame He's not afraid to show the world his pain But his raps will always bring tears to my face Because his pain is like my pain One in the same I'd like to think This is just another bad day She's looking sad What's wrong with her face Why does I.T always have to be this way Where I lose control of all my strength And fear takes control of my day And like a coward I run away And I lose faith Falling deep into the grays Can this just be another bad day I wish i could say I'll be okay Here we go Another bad day