Conflicted

Running these streets thuggin' heavy Running round chasing a dream that was empty Been at the bottom so long I've accepted Hard times and strife in my life as a lesson Raised in the game it's so cold Ain't ever lived paid I been broke Tossed in a cage and I been far away And I pray for the day that I blow Walk through the fire want the smoke Target desire I see gold Work my whole life I give all that I got Never gonna stop till I'm cold Picking it different Sick and I'm living a prison I'm stuck in this bitch Finished with misery living with bitterness Suffering tough in this bitch Give in to mystery Pivot I learn from my history Demons that run through my head Listen for destiny Driven I Wish you were testing me Bitch I was left for the dead Stricken the enemy Wicked befriending me Vivid I'm living a piss of serenity Tipping the Hennessy Gripping the memories Livid I'm living a piss of this heavenly Ticking and Ticking Cause time ain't a friend to me Taking and taking It's taking the breath in me Sitting in prison Yeah time was the death of me I Prayed and I prayed Everyday for a better me Taking and taking It's taking the breath in me I Prayed and I prayed Everyday for a better me Twisted I'm living this Cold I been shivering Smoke been delivering Cope and I'm really lit Hope I consider I open to misery Smoke for the hell of it Dab it's like Damn am I actually out of it Running these streets thuggin' heavy Running round chasing a dream that was empty Been at the bottom so long I've accepted Hard times and strife in my life as a lesson Infested with stress in my head Confess God I messed up again Suppressing the pain from within Depressed like this world that we live Feel like I live life all alone Is this real Can I cope on my own Real cries that I here in the cold These demons are real so I smoke Aggressive I get Disrespected I check them Arrested The rest is distress in detention Pathetic of you Tormented Relented Intentions been true My mental is reckless So what can I do Accept it I get it I get it from you Step up and get it together No matter the weather Or whether your stuck in the blue I'm clever won't fold under pressure And treasure the moments together Don't matter whatever the pleasure I'm true Get up with nothing to do Got something to prove to you I was Running these streets thuggin' heavy Running round chasing a dream that was empty Been at the bottom so long I've accepted Hard times and strife in my life as a lesson Infested with stress in my head Confess God I messed up again Suppressing the pain from within Depressed like this world that we live