Closed Eyes

Had to clear out the dirt so the dust could settle The damage that won't be covered by the incidentals The strangers are growing stranger And my pockets settle way too many problems that I have And I get sentimental About the youth that I withheld, that I'm withholding I wear this hat alone, it's just me and Holden I must be broken What I speak it comes to life I must have misspoken Have I been gone from home too long? Spent my last coupon? Set my last suit on? Conversations had over udon Reminds me that she's got more soul than Busan But I been feeling drained Couple days pass, I don't feel okay Am I still okay? I've been sick down to my stomach then it goes away When I write, when I clear my head I fear the unimportant, I'm not fearing the dead Feeling upset, and underfed Some things are better off un-un-un Unseen and less traveled I'm baffled By how my nights seem to unravel I do not know any of you And I don't know anyone here at all I must have been wrong You've told me I do not belong I get it, I've heard it, move on Remove me from all the group texts that I'm on So be it, so long I been in this for the long term thrill of the ride I been witness to the greatness that I'm putting aside I've been changing by the minute and I push to provide I've been waiting my turn in line but they push me aside Long as I can keep my confidence up Long as I can break out of the shell I'm in Confidential things that I'm working on And doors left unopened that I'm breaking in Pretty soon I gotta take a breather Get a text that says "come to my table I got somebody you'll want to meet" But I don't want to meet her She'll be yanking on my chain like I'm Derek Jeter I need a solo vacation Ditch a phone, decide to hike across Appalachia Write a letter just to tell her that I'm no longer anxious I've just been sitting, waiting, sitting, waiting And my time is rapidly nearing Delusions of grandeur I'm losing my hearing The vision grows stronger The thought of them cheering The boy that you called unappealing Ripping throats and doing shows and I shatter the ceiling Who am I to question myself? Put it all on blast, impressing myself People from my past, they feel what I felt When they hearing this, but I don't know their whereabouts I live a life that most would envy I'm growing out of your league What if I'm not ready? I heard you gotta kill what you eat But still they begging me to end this shit Like what do you mean? I been getting just so much better Are you jealous of me? Closed eyes And blind faith And Soda, and Bombay And no sign of stopping Reverse down the highway Co-sign from Sosa I grow wiser, by day I'm profiled and profound And stay grounded my way Closed eyes And blind faith And Soda, and Bombay And no sign of stopping Reverse down the highway Co-sign from Sosa I grow wiser, by day I'm profiled and profound And stay grounded my way O.