Time Capsule

See they hearing me now But I’m not sure they listen Because it’s easier to nod your head than pay attention If you don’t read between the lines, there’s a lot you’re missing Skipping a moment in time afraid to see ascension Please remind me Please remind me to come to my senses Don’t let many people see me when I let down my defenses I often end up in my driveway with the gas still on And contemplate the legacy I’m passing on And question all the feedback And my eyes start stinging White knuckles on the steering wheel And my phone starts ringing again Oh I put too much pressure on myself But its so fucking worth it Cannot measure my own worth in dollars But Imma work to one day deserve it And earn it New name I’m still adJustin I like my odds but Danny Dice told me to never trust em Lately we’re driving to the driving range And talking less bout sudden change Despite the fact it’s evident, and everything won’t be the same We used to go sledding on the back of garbage lids I slept better outside upon a tarp with this Ignorant smile, on the dirt filled with carcasses Before I had a preference which floor my apartment is Wout, you are my brother, just with a different skin tone I’m grateful for the mornings you’d wake up without a ringtone And dress yourself outside the room, just to let me sleep A few more minutes in the morning Just so I could get some piece of mind Lately I’ve been taking some time Writing some thank you notes that I won’t send, apologies I’ll never sign I promised I’d be home in time but I keep running late I'm stuck in traffic But it’s just my thoughts that I can’t escape See I don’t look up to my heroes no more They keep dying and reminding me that life is too short And to be truthfully honest Maybe I should be admonished I now see them as my peers and I don’t trust all of the knowledge They be telling me I just take it with a grain of salt And wait until I figure out I guess I really am my biggest enemy And I keep turning to my playlist to find answers when they say shit But I’m left with silence and it keeps offending me I once got a call, my friend was in a panic She was breaking down, upset, and all her words were sounding frantic I went to find her in the bathroom of this attic In this dingy lookin' house, she’s on the floor, it was dramatic So we talked for awhile, a couple tears were shed She was going through some shit she never said Because she’s usually the type that people look to for advice When things are not alright and no stability's in sight And we really haven’t mentioned it since Just a vulnerable moment that’ll toughen your skin If it was reversed, I know that she would have my back I’m worried when I’m older, I probably will see less of that What’s wrong with a little time to make believe What wrong with a little time to wait and see All the catching my breath is catching up to me What’s wrong with a little time to make believe What wrong with a little time to wait and see All the catching my breath is catching up to me This is my time capsule, I leave it Here for you to see it Observe me at my weakest Leave me in the deep end Goodbye to everything I'll ever know Goodbye to everything I'll ever know