Nothing to Gain

I give it everything I got, but what is there to gain? I put my pain into the page I’m fuckin’ ragin’ with this shit I don’t got no fuckin’ fans Money, I ain’t makin’ it I ain’t doin’ this for a livin’ I just do it for the passion Therapeutic for my soul Where did you go when I wrote That fuckin’ line for you, bro? You ain’t showin’ no love You ain’t sharin’ my shit How am I supposed to grow If nobody hears my flows? I fuckin’ body these tracks But people take me for a joke I got nothing to lose But I got nothing to gain Fuckin’ fillin’ these shoes But you don’t feel me the same Fuckin’ fuckboys don’t even know what I’m saying F*ck a fuckin’ flow F*ck you if you say I’m fuckin’ sayin’ f*ck too many times I’ll fuckin’ say it some more I’m fuckin’ sprayin’ these hoes wit’ these notes that I wrote Now get your nose outta the broke shit Stop sniffin’ the dope It fucks you up ‘til you don’t know Where you are or you go You can’t memorize shit The fuckin’ damage is permanent You’re marked for life as a loser with strife You think it’s cool snorting powder ‘til you’re passed out with white Shit all over the floor, with not a friend in sight They ain’t your friends They’re just homies who like Spendin’ time with a cool guy Who is down for the ride You’re getting high with each other Getting laid with your “brothers” What you say to your mother When you get on home? “Mom, please leave me alone I had a long night I’m just up in my zone” F*ck you, fuckin’ bitch Apologize to your mom She’s the only one who’s tryna help you off this path you’re on It’s destructive in its nature Puttin’ yourself into danger Gangbangin’ on the block Tryna get shot by a ranger You don’t gotta live this life You got a choice, don’t meet your maker Put your food upon your plate Listen to who’s tryna save ya We’re all tryna eat We don’t gotta cheat to make a livin’ for ourselves We gotta get up out this hell I got nothing to lose But I got nothing to gain Fuckin’ fillin’ these shoes But you don’t feel me the same Fuckin’ fuckboys don’t even know what I’m saying Why you gotta play follow the leader all the time? Be your own fuckin’ leader Use your own damn mind That’s why you got one I fuckin’ make what’s hot, son I don’t follow the trends I’m tryna set ‘em, not cop one Don’t compare me to my idols; I’m my own damn man I get inspired off ‘em, then I do what I can To put my own twist on it Spit it with a different topic From a new point of view that you haven’t ever gotten I speak for the ones that never have their stories told, the lonely folks The ones who don’t drink or smoke Who has no interest in fuckin’ hoes Or partyin’ ‘til the lights go out I’d prefer just chillin’ in a house With a couple of friends, sittin’ on a couch More intimate, just talk with them Learn who they are, express myself Instead of grindin’ on my belt Forget what we felt, left it on the dance floor In that case, hell, I might as well not go at all Want real connection, not time to fall on the wayside Wanna take time to learn your face lines I’m in space, high Pain ends when I’m in love Don’t need no meds for havin’ fun No alcohol or drugs, just friends that I can trust People that’ll give me hugs if I need it in a slump We can play some funny games or watch a movie on the rug Talk about all of our problems Then we joke, and then we solve ‘em We’re ventin’ our feelin’s out; this is how you build a bond up Friends like these, you gotta be glad that you got ‘em ‘Cause you could have none or have some who on the bottom I got something to lose But I got nothing to gain I have everything I need Can you tell me the same? If you’re thinkin’ in your brain I have family and friends Then I’m tellin’ you, fella That the answer is yes