The Bridge/Savior

Look at me stuck inside my head again, f*ck Same old shit, this is where I always end up Kill myself? I cannot escape the question Where I'm at, there's no way that I remember Stuck in a dark abyss No I cannot repent For all the sins I did Ideas I rummage Feelin' like there's no escape In my mind I'm so empty Who am I? Someone's renting My whole life, need to vacate But I think something's worse this time Body shakin' I can't stop the cryin' Feelin' my heartbeat from the outside Lowest of the low, Tech 2009 Hope, all of it is gone Nope, this is not Slipknot Rope on my neck or nah? Ope, got an idea Somethin' that'll be a painless death I'm convinced Off the bridge I'll lay my soul to rest, this is it Yeah we goin' down Yeah we goin' down Yeah we goin' down Yeah we goin' down I just wanna die today But I'm afraid That someone's gonna try and help save me I just wanna die today To try and escape From the demons in my head the home they made This the final solution that'll fix it all Picturin' myself inside my crystal ball Takin' itty bitty steps up until I fall Down onto the road, gon' be dead before I crawl Ain't nobody gonna come for me I will rest in peace Bystanders are watchin' from their seats They cannot believe Anything they see before their eyes They are petrified Police comin' to assess the crime "Guys please step aside" Real life I'm snappin' back Dark thoughts still havin' that My soul is cracked in half Don't know what happens after But I don't really give no fucks Hop inside my car and I slam the do' shut School I'm skippin' No thought given Speedin' down the highway Bridge I'm driven No more livin' Lemme end it my way On a mission Think I'm trippin' Hesitation hardly Mind is driftin' No stop listen This the end of my days Yeah we goin' down Yeah we goin' down Yeah we goin' down Yeah we goin' down I just wanna die today But I'm afraid That someone's gonna try and help save me I just wanna die today To try and escape From the demons in my head the home they made Standin' on the edge Waitin' to be dead No more tears to shed My life grade an F Finally all this bullshit will be done and over No more bein' looked at like an ogre Ain't no way that my demise gon' be covert I can see the pearly gates gettin' closer Yeah we goin' down Yeah we goin' down Yeah we goin' down Yeah we goin' down I just wanna die today But I'm afraid That someone's gonna try and help save me I just wanna die today To try and escape From the demons in my head the home they made Wakin' up on that Thursday mornin' Gettin' outta bed and I'm stretchin' and I'm yawnin' I'ma check my phone, normally it's not important Open up my messages, oh look it's from the homie What do I see? What will it be? I cryptic message from the bro "I can't do this anymo'" What do I say? What did he mean? How I respond I don't know Is this outta my control? Gettin' frantic Start to panic Fuckin' dammit Feelin' manic Text him back like "What's goin' on? You good?" Heart attack, no response I don't know what's goin' on Turnin' on my noti' sound Think I know what's goin' down This ain't my first trip around That old suicidal town I can feel my hands Start to shake up Does he have a plan To never wake up? Mind of a young man Is it made up? Is this when my friend Really gave up? Askin' myself questions that I do not know the answer to Hopin' this ain't the day that my best friend ends up on the news This can't be where it all ends Some options not exhuasted I'm so scared to be honest If you die I'm so sorry And I know it's all my fault He gave up screamin' "Uncle" In my body feel a rumble I have never felt so awful Thank God I got a text back Oh f*ck This is really bad Says he's at a bridge and he's boutta jump down Fear still settin' in, I don't what I'm about To do to save his life today I knew that he is not okay But soon I'll have a price to pay To you if I can't find a way For you to survive, gotta keep you on the line Can't run outta time, I won't let you take yo life Wakin' up my mom, boutta turn that old car on Sittin' in the front tryna learn yo location On my way tryna save you In your head I'ma break through On the bridge we will race to 911 on the way soon Dodgin' cars there's some traffic No response, yo what happened? Hope I'm not talkin' past tense When I think of you laughin' Finally we made it I just ran outta patience and my mind is racin' I can see you standin' over there on the edge Hoppin' out the car and get some air, catch my breath Cops already arrived at the scene God must be on my side and it seems That he's gonna comply I just wanna run by Give him a big hug, cry Help him see the sunshine But I can't Police gonna take him to place That's a safe haven Was this the right thing to do? I don't know But his safety I'ma choose, that's fo' sho' Thank you for stayin' with us I know that life is real tough We will make it together Here's one thing to remember So much love comin' your way We want you to be okay Depression there is no shame Call for help never go away