Penalized

Not gonna lie, this is hard to write Always feared thoughts like these, with close ones would start a fight They say do unto others what has been done to you Does that mean any future lover, thy must abuse? Is it easy to unlearn what's imbedded When lines are treaded and tempers go beyond tepid? That's a negative cuz gentlemen don't go domestic With threats, getting welted from elders is the lesson But they say you can't just block your bullies For you are not a punching bag, go clock their skelly You must bite back when they try to sting first And swing worse, make sure every frequency hurts But they don't have the answers when line's are crossed Natural born manipulator acting like a boss It's depressing, the one bully increasing stress You can't hit back because of what's between the legs that is why This is what it's like to be penalized For thy was born penalized This is what it's like to be penalized For thy was born penalized Know what it's like to have your soul crowned with shame? Would she be to blame if he goes out insane? We forget not everyone shows out their pain Sometimes the real victim slowly blows out their brain With the pills and the soft, sometimes the hard Most of the time we just really don't like to talk Lack of self motivation leads to no life at all Emotions, Roman Empire, prone to rise and fall But don't like to brawl, whether deserved or not But this type abuse got me concerned with thoughts No matter who it is, fear I may just end up with Someone getting off at me rolling with her punches To be honest, I pray this ain't relatable Youth confusing biblical for what's cynical But I still never condone hitting women I just ask for the future to please sit and listen because This is what it's like to be penalized For thy was born penalized This is what it's like to be penalized For thy was born penalized Dear God, I hope you listen Whatever past shit I did, pray forgiven I've been afraid to even think about this To wear an albatross daily like a freaking outfit And to speak about this, been both praised and shamed Nobody's placing blame but fear I stained the name Though I never changed for fame nor gained in bank I utilize art to help my tainted brain feel sane But I'm confused on what's wrong or right Some say never hit women even if cost is life Others say pull no punches if you're stuck in a brawl Why can't we teach not to hit someone at all? I write this because I don't ask for much Only recently, I gained the will for standing up So after everything I've been through, am I man enough?? F*ck being penalized!! This is what it's like to be penalized For thy was born penalized This is what it's like to be penalized For thy was born penalized