Envy

My last year has been hectic Done things I'd deem pathetic Here to live out my full sentence Is it bad if I never meant it I want them to let me in I want so much more than this Want to end all the suffering But I'm not one for giving in The feelings start to set in Always seems I'm destined Still choosing not to get it Probably best if I'm forgetting it Imma let it all poor out again I don't know the meaning of a friend I want them to wake me when it ends Wake me when it ends Imma let it all poor out again All the little hurtful things they said Adding up to break right on in Imma let it all poor out again This is how I feel cuz the whole world left me I have trouble keeping anyone who's met me How you gonna hold when my souls so empty I lost many people cuz they all chose envy Don't tell me to jump I will don't tempt me I been so broken I'm way past bending Crying over love more than hate they send me I just lay inside of the mind I'm renting Yeah Tell me what's the deal They don't know how I feel Try my best to keep it real When I open it's hard to heal Someone tried to tell me I'm way too friendly I just do my best for the minds I'm mending I just love to love I hate pretending Tryna hold them down while the world keeps ending Hard to block em out when they just keep sending Imma stick around so they don't forget me Keeping my head down hope they all forgive me Watch me when I sprout I swear I'm pending Imma let it all poor out again I don't know the meaning of a friend I want them to wake me when it ends Wake me when it ends Imma let it all poor out again All the little hurtful things they said Adding up to break right on in Imma let it all poor out again This is how I feel cuz the whole world left me I have trouble keeping anyone who's met me How you gonna hold when my souls so empty I lost many people cuz they all chose envy Don't tell me to jump I will don't tempt me I been so broken I'm way past bending Crying over love more than hate they send me I just lay inside of the mind I'm renting Yeah