Ashes (feat. Joshua Lloyd & Emma Payne)

Yeah I got a lot of baggage tryna figure it out I wonder what the future me would think of me now So would he be disappointed then or would he be proud? Would he know he did the right thing or would he be down? I guess I'll know when I get there, sit in my deck chair Reminiscing bout the shit I did when I clowned And my mum told me I should just forgive myself Cos if I don't never feel the love I give myself I think back to all the things I've done, all the things I've said All the things I've wrote and all the things I've read The time that I was spending up in some girls bed Knowing I am not calling when I see her text And I ain't proud of it, but I'm out of it My next girl is getting loved to death And if I ever put you through the shit I faced Then I'm sorry I'm no longer who I was back then and that's real I have made mistakes and you have too I don't care cos that was the old you See you can toss him into the ashes And leave him to rest in peace with the old me Ashes to ashes, dust to dust I wonder will it all change now I'm growing up I made a lot of mistakes I made too many bad choices But shit gets crazy when you seek that buzz but I've grown Wonder if they notice I wonder if they see me any different now I'm not involved With the same old people who had me broken but I'm focused now I just keep it rolling but Back on reflection I wasn't in a space back then to be learning lessons But now days, I just smile on Even when it's hard I can count my blessings, yeah In five years time I'll be living my life With my old regrets all sidelined you see With myself I made a deal I'm gonna work through my shit until I love myself and that's real I have made mistakes and you have too I don't care cos that was the old you See you can toss him into the ashes And leave him to rest in peace with the old me And you can leave him to rest in peace with the old me I have made mistakes and you have too I don't care cos that was the old you See you can toss him into the ashes And leave him to rest in peace with the old me