Uphill From Here

Many moons have passed since Pretty, I still feel the same Same thoughts running through my head, I feel insane Supposed to face my problems, I just wanna run away You tell me that you're sorry, don't know what to say Rain is pouring in the middle of the summer season Can't even begin to tell you all the things I'm dealing with Cards in my deck printed with subtle demons, it's Humbling how it's bubbling up without a reason I love you and I miss you when we're not together 'Cause when we're not together Weather's bad with no umbrella Life's a symphony, but I'm hearing it acapella I try my best to not be such an awful fella, but man The past is catching up in ways I never wanted I'm living in my mind, and this house is haunted I wish that night was packed into a box and left forgotten My heart is on my sleeve, and I always flaunt it Constant, I'm always exhausted Thoughts is nauseous, leave me feeling rotten I've been daunted, blood is really clotting Flowers potted, this ride got me carsick Constant, I'm always exhausted Thoughts is nauseous, leave me feeling rotten I've been daunted, blood is really clotting Flowers potted, this ride got me carsick I've been talking to God, talking to my friends I've hurt and been hurt, I wanna make amends That's why it's celebration when I take my pen And jot these lyrics, now I'm seeing through another lens I was in a valley that felt infinite Ironic when the past gets to you, isn't it? I hit rock bottom, now here's the funny thing Only way to go is up, so I'ma trampoline (jump) When things all unforeseen end up just happening I'm practicing the isolation of my thoughts Like viruses to quarantine, I intervene like anti-histamine I'm in-between a submarine And a couple gallons of hydrazine I'm grateful, I was hateful I said things I didn't mean 'cause I'm unstable I was disgraceful, I was shameful But she was always faithful So baby, thank you Thank you for showing love when I didn't show none back Through this trial you've still had my back And it's crazy that I'm feeling like this, feeling so down, but What goes down must come up, right I don't know how the saying goes But that sounds better anyways Thank you, I love you