After All

A crystal in the morning snow I try to feed the afterglow It beckons me like moths drawn to a flame I try to stretch the setting sun To fight the loneliness to come A band of light to wrap around my brain If I can keep the light inside I think I'll find the time to fight The Grendel and the Gorgon in my brain I'll hold it like a firefly And press that warmth against me like Some stupid boyish lie I sometimes wish I could get through to you To tell me what to do So I don't feel the cold is slowly sinking in The lights around me blinking Like a sign Like this was never mine So tell me it's all fine and undermine it all I'll try to float but never fall We know That all we do is grow So why does every step we take mean Something so unknown And every day we try We keep it all inside Try to quiet that mind and all the things we think to hide So you won't see the agony and all the nights I cried After all Mmmmmm, I'm standing tall Take a breath Mmmmmm, Prolong your death The sun will set on frozen skin An emptying shade that's razor-thin It holds me in a chokehold of its own The sun on every inch of me The downpour like a symphony You stretch me out and lay me on a stone You always slipped right out the door Before we knew what lay in store A fountain of despair that drags me down I'll find the time to occupy The spaces that we hide inside Wish we could do it all I sometimes wish I could erase my mind To spare me from the times Where all I did was sit and mald and block it out I never found the words to shout And yet We never will forget It's better to distract myself than feel the churn Of anxious stomachs burning And we know We still have room to grow So why does every thought we make mean Feeling so alone And every day we try To keep it all inside Try to relive the memories and leave them all behind Before they seem to swallow me and leave us intertwined After all Mmmmmm, To rise means to fall Find your hold Mmmmmm, Brace for the cold After all