I'm Sorry (For it All)

It was never my intention Not some "secret intervention" I've been asking for a sign that I'm not out of my mind But I'm still just talking to the floor Wanna apologize to you For all those stupid things I did I'll continue to do I wanna tell you that I'm sorry For all that I held back And I'm sorry to the people That I made pick up the slack Mmmmm... I'm sorry to my mother That I haven't been enough If I'd been trying harder Things just wouldn't be so rough And I know I'm a mess to you I'll never be the best to you Don't have to remind me it's true I've been living in the background- Let the past fester and weigh me down I've been changing- you have too Still I'm feeling less than you Thought I'd made it out alive but I'm just waiting Saw your mom the other day Lost my breath along with words I wanted to say I wanna tell you that I'm sorry For remembering those days And I'm sorry to the memories That I need to put away... Mmmmmmm... I'm sorry, "those who love me" If I'm wasting your time There's nothing else I've wanted More than something that's not mine If you leave, I'll disappear Sorry that you're stuck down here With a stupid bug just buzzing in your ear I'm sorry (Sorry for it all) God, I'm sorry I'm alive Shove me back into a closet Starve me, hide me from the light I can't speak and I can't breathe Just don't tell me that you'll leave Need someone here to count the sheep