Fear (feat. Luis Galindo)

It's here Now, as always Here, here, and here I shouldn't even speak its name, it might come after me again If I stay still, quiet, small It might leave me alone I doubt it It has never left me alone before But there is a chance, right? Right No chance It is ready to attack or slither around me And squeeze me to nothing It's slithering up my legs, around my waist Up to my heart, my lungs, my mouth My Eyes Brain My mind I can't do this I cannot lose my mind I am losing control, I have no agency My logic and faculties, are slipping away I cannot call for help, I am paralyzed Stultified I cannot fight this, It wins every time It is in my breath and blood, In my eyes Demanding silence when I need to set boundaries And rage when I am vulnerable Violence when I am reliving trauma And disappearance when things get too difficult Desires get burned in a landfill of unworthiness Dreams sink into oceans of self sabotage And love Love is destroyed for the terror That it may be taken away All hope bet and lost on uncertainty, injury to others Graveyards full of broken promises Hope hangs limp from nooses in dimly lit rooms Across the planet As the Boa constrictor of fear Wraps us all in its ice cold, reptilian embrace One at a time, unless we choose not to succumb And it is a choice Ultimately the only one that matters Do I choose fear or its opposite Love