trials and tribulations

(Wait, did you say this was Juno's beat?) (T-t-today, Junior!) Look I told bro that I never was perfect, living my life, doing things that was worth it Goin all day rocking Nikes, doing everything, tryna give my life a purpose, yeah Man's brain stuck up in the surface, everything I write, I be feeling like it's cursive My mind feels like I'm living in a warzone, always stay strapped, doing time, doing service Fighting my demons is lethal, man's getting bad vibes from the other people My nigga told me last year "Just forget that shit", but bruddah, this has turned into a sequel I can't fathom the times that I met good man's, with morals, then they turned into an evil Mind's playing games with my heart, and all dem emotions, they feeling unequal You wanna know how my mental is? You wanna learn every single precipice? How many mans do you know, that is going through shit, and you know what the message is? My mind's gone, ain't no benefits, my heart feels like it's torn, it's my nemesis Man's feeling broken, nah this ain't a joke fam, tearing me right in the crevices This is a letter to all of my family and loved ones, I'm sorry that it couldn't work Man's tryna work on myself, but this shit is too hard, but I wanna just put myself first Every new day has just gave me the worst, looked at my phone and I saw a big message from gyal, it said "Baby, we're not finna work" Shit has been tearing man up, and it hurts But I'm tryna be a better man, spread my wings and fly, like I'm Peter Pan Find the motivation just to get up every morning, finna go out on a walk, hit a vibe, then I'm making plans I'm stuck in my thoughts and my feelings, and I'm tryna conceal it, but this shit is hard, bro Feeling like these demons unleashed hell on my mind, bro Can't keep it together, even when I'm at my job, bro, God knows God knows that I be hurting right now, all a nigga's tryna do is find a way out I'm stuck reminiscing on all my past memories, like going to St. Mary's and spending the days with my gyal, yeah I promised I'd work on myself, yeah Nah, this shit be something else, yeah I'm hoping and praying that man will get through this, this shit is not good for man's health, yeah But I drive alone on the road, take a look at my phone I see a message from my nigga, said he wondered if the mandem was home, I told him "No, man be driving alone, you know?" "Hit up the court, take your mind off shit, we'll get the boys, we be hittin' dem licks", I said "Bet", yeah But all along, while the vibe still hits, I overthink, and I'm feeling content, but still stressed Do you remember the days I called you mine? That was a sign of the good times, and we would do whatever You really made my life better, every single day that passed, we would always stick together Any weather, we'd always do what we wanted to, smile on your face, every time that I admired you Us against the world, couldn't stop us if they wanted to, I promised you, I would do everything that I could for you Take a look at what I did for you, I gave you everything I had, cause I loved and I cared for you Every time you was down, I was there for you, I'll always remember when you were there for me too I just knew that I wanted you, I look at life and see a future with us, it really felt like a plus, because I had someone who understood me, then I broke your trust I broke your trust and I really regret it, never be able to forgive myself The thoughts I had when I realized this relationship was over, I won't lie, I really started to be losing myself Now I gotta live with my trials and tribulation, nigga Build up from all of the guilt, I gotta face it, nigga Do all I can just to work on myself, try to better my health, and Imma give it dedication, nigga I told bro that I never was perfect, living my life, doing things that was worth it Goin all day rocking Nikes, doing everything, tryna give my life a purpose, yeah Man's brain stuck up in the surface, everything I write, I be feeling like it's cursive My mind feels like I'm living in a warzone, always stay strapped, doing time, doing service Fighting my demons is lethal, man's getting bad vibes from the other people My nigga told me last year "Just forget that shit", but bruddah, this has turned into a sequel I can't fathom the times that I met good man's, with morals, then they turned into an evil Mind's playing games with my heart, and all dem emotions, they feeling un- To find the right words to say, it has been genuinely really tough Man's been going through a lot of shit these past few weeks And I feel that if I vent through my music, which is what I do best, then it may do some good for me Which is why, man's gonna say this, and I can't stress this enough Remember all of the times you gave me motivation? You used to pull up to all of my shows Or the times we'd be watching Tiktok and some Netflix, you knew "The Flash" is my favourite show And God knows that I tried to keep you close, just wanted to see my gyal happy cause I love you the most I walk alone in my depression, a nigga's out here stressin' cause you're not here, acting like I'm a ghost You said you wanted me to be in your life, because I wanted to be But it's impossible, if you're just not acknowledging me It's your choice, can't change that unfortunately, it's torturing me indefinitely Look, I'm not calling you out, I just needed some time to spit some shit that I never really talked about Reminiscing on the things we shared, like "Sylvia's Mother" in the Civic, we used to scream and shout I never hoped that I would live in this life, y'know? You always told me before, that shit happens Every day I still think about our love, and how happy we were, I really miss the old days with such a passion And I hope you find the happiness that's true, I really hope you find yourself, that shit just don't come out the blue I have respect for your beautiful soul, because it's true, but I really hope you know, that I'm still in love with you I told bro that I never was perfect, living my life, doing things that was worth it Goin all day rocking Nikes, doing everything, tryna give my life a purpose, yeah Man's brain stuck up in the surface, everything I write, I be feeling like it's cursive My mind feels like I'm living in a warzone, always stay strapped, doing time, doing service Fighting my demons is lethal, man's getting bad vibes from the other people My nigga told me last year "Just forget that shit", but bruddah, this has turned into a sequel I can't fathom the times that I met good man's, with morals, then they turned into an evil Mind's playing games with my heart, and all dem emotions, they feeling unequal