What goes up @25 (feat. J. Da Real)

(Yeah) I don't wanna dredge up the past (Nah) But I don't see us ever talking again (I don't ) Whatever it was outta my hands (My hands) Contemplating all that I can Sitting at the beach in the sand Know people split off then You and me our song now Now maybe I was stalling Worst thing though was falling Been building myself up (Myself up) Never what it was costing (Costing costing) And I drown what will blossom (Blossom) And depression was exhausting So I Moved away closer to the beach (I did) Hoping you'd do you and I'd do me Utilize the change in scenery Though lessons never set you free (They don't) Didn't think I'd get this far (Nope) Things were getting pretty hard Sang to you my Shining Star Though our love was never pure I was way to insecure (oh god) Over now and that's for sure Way too much to endure That's the question isn't it Who I could've been Who I would've been If I didn't sin What I should've did Giving in Addiction was crippling My crutch is what did me in And you went in and finished it And I don't blame you I lost myself you could not help Vices came flying off the shelf The loss I dealt I can't describe the way that felt I lost myself you could not help Vices came flying off the shelf The loss I dealt I can't describe the way that felt Off top you needed me (Off top) Me to find peace yeah We were something (Something) We were forcing I couldn't forsee (Nah) Me drowning I could not breathe like Waves crashing Against my teeth yo Hey KP (Hey KP) Wanted you to know that You haunt me I dream not dream Things remind me Times not sweet You know what I mean Elaborate shall we See Sadly I submit to what I fiend I give into what I need Wish this wasn't real And I could fall asleep Just wake up Not remember anything (Not a fucking thing) Damn Stuck racing And pacing The high I kept chasing I left you there waiting I left you there waiting I left you there waiting I left you there waiting Waiting waiting waiting So forgive me Forgive for lessons Forgive for the stressing I'm the man I am Because of digression Forced my progression I felt the distance I should've listened I died at 27 Counted my blessings Epiphany granted Metacognition I was done slipping You were an omission (Sorry) Hope I'm forgiven Don't see it different A hollow nightmare Sleep brought despair You no longer cared I was unprepared Time is what I need Time to plant these seeds Time so I could grow Time to let you go That's the question isn't it Who I could've been Who I would've been If I didn't sin What I should've did Giving in Addiction was crippling My crutch is what did me in And you went in and finished it And I don't blame you I lost myself you could not help Vices came flying off the shelf The loss I dealt I can't describe the way that felt I lost myself you could not help Vices came flying off the shelf The loss I dealt I can't describe the way that felt