Let Down

I just went to therapy To get a little clarity Say I hate my father but we've got some similarities What a hilarity Ironic that by fighting it I still became a parody Apparently the caged bird sings just like a parquet Stuck inside my ways until I fashioned my own pair of keys Taking psychedelics just to find myself like Cherokees Wanna make it big just so my parent see hope they can forgive all my transparency I'm looking at a goal that I can barely see I know if I fail that it ain't only gone embarrass me But I can't afford to live for you so bare with me Swear I'm on my way to bigger things than you might dare believe Dammit what a let down A let down I built you up for you to get down And I guess I'm a let down too Cause you built me up and I let down you Why do the words come easier When I'm low oppose to when I'm meteor I guess the sensation of pain can't be mistook While being happy's brief and it's easily overlooked I know I should think more on that but I'm overbooked When I spend this much time writing instead of paying my bills The curse of being creative isn't worth what it yields Unless you plant your seeds inside the most fruitful of fields I've been using insecurity like it's a shield To cover up the wounds from memories that haven't healed Instead of taken chances to see what they might reveal I hope thats all in my mental I know it's fucking scary when you're chasing your potential And it gets detrimental When you get to an age where nobody can be saved When you develop philosophies based off how you were raised And people that you look up to ain't worth what you had appraised And you find parts of yourself that'll only make you ashamed I don't get too far these days Find myself lost on freeways Contemplate how we behave I don't think that we'll be saved