I Don't Wanna Die / EastSide Symphony

I cross my heart and hope to I lost my spark then pray I won't Then saw the dark I know i'll Brought it to light I know i I know i I know i Go go go go I don't wanna die i don't wanna die Nigga i don't wanna die i don't wanna die Nigga i don't wanna die i don't wanna die Nigga i don't wanna die i don't wanna die Nigga i don't wanna die I'mma be free from this shit when i Long time coming been dreaming of this when i Me and the lord got a meeting and shit when i Ain't tweaking I know i I know i I know i Go go go go I don't wanna die i don't wanna die Nigga i don't wanna die i don't wanna die Nigga i don't wanna die i don't wanna die Nigga i don't wanna die i don't wanna die Nigga i don't wanna die Promise to keep my name high when i Promise to keep the same vibe when i Promise my name up in lights when i Forever I know i I know i I know i I know i gave ya'll all of me who i used to be and who i oughta be Ain't shit you could offer me when these demons won't get up off of me And they corner me when they swarming me so horribly but it's all i see When my depression hits and it performs for me And i'll fake the smile cause it's the norm for me This bad bitch won't stop calling me my family like what's wrong with me I barely ate and i barely slept i'm feeling broken i'm still upset I asked god why he ain't get me yet so i mix some pills and my pillow wet shadows on my walls like a silhouette Stopped feeling right when my feelings left But still i say The feeling of hustler's when touching the paper The story connected ain't shit you could make up This ain't a birthday but we got the cake up Could hate on the game but don't hate on the player ughh If she got body i slay her Equal exchange a favor for favor Got some more muscles a nigga got weight up and i got the now and they catching on later ughh Shepherd ave look what you made me More about green less about people lately I still got dreams of having mercedes More than i ever thought having a baby ughh Ironic my exes they crave me but going back to them nigga you crazy I'm moving forward i'm watching me pay me i wouldn't trade me for another don't ever mistake me I single-handedly doubled my work Then watched my status change tripled my worth I want the medals for coming in first with blessing to break generational curse Member the crib had the roaches and rats Member my bro said the walls smell like crack Not where you started it's bout where you at Testing your strength to go grind and adapt I gotta find my own way out this trap Center stage get em prepared for the act I give em truth and these niggas all cap Compare to me only mirror to match I give her dick and she getting attached Legs in the air or get hit from the back Audience the way we get it to clap Squeezing me with her new kegels relaxed Haaaa okayyy wassupppp shut uppppp They getting money and i want someeee Niggas taking risks where i come frommm Pretty young thang give me yum yummm On her knees hair in a bun bunnnn Tongue got her shaking like a stun gunnn Doing these moves can't be undoneee I ain't the one that these people be used to I never liked you i'm all bout my future Don't want it later let's get to it sooner my life in these raps you could skip all the rumors I'm from the east where this hell look like heaven In my age group bunch of steppers and felons Bunch of loose women and niggas with weapons and don't know the truth of where all of them heading Live for the now i can't judge what we are Past teenage years in my mind we went far We coping with traumas we born in the dramas we making some dollars and drawing some commas And thought of a product admits all the gossip and should've been dead we defy all the logic It gotta be church or the prayers from mommas or our stomach growing be used as reminders Made it my business to make my life privileged Don't give a f*ck about niggas or bitches I told myself to change the way it was written my story gon see me evading the sentence My skin color always gon make em remember identify em with the face of a winner The stereotypes ain't gon break what i'm feeling i like pretty bitches and flavor on chicken F*ck your consensus i'm not a statistic and no politician came this way to visit I'm not in your picture i'm made in the image with rational thoughts when i'm weighing decisions Glass half full and my paper consistent Don't need a genie to grant all these wishes I'm shaking the town up and shaking the district the cost is your mind come and pay me attention Got the soul ties with the east and the gutter That's the foundation not weak in my structure no time for distractions ain't keeping your number God gave me the strength so that we never suffer Can't be contained i'mma live how i wanna Getting lil older my bones feeling younger It's hot outside from all the bullets and weather this hell feel so special and i got the one up So whattup Nigga