Mercy (feat. K-Dot)

I'm thankful for these memories of pain And i'm grateful for the outcome of my ways Mercy And i'm never going back to what broke me I'm just glad for what it did show me Mercy I'm thankful for these memories of pain And i'm grateful for the outcome of my ways Mercy And i'm never going back to what broke me I'm just glad for what it did show me Mercy See to live is to suffer but to survive Well that's to find the meaning in the suffering I look back at all the times I felt i wasn't shit And why i acted out As ways for me to cover it I was out the lines No matter how you color it I lost every relationship Probably cause of it If i'm strong enough I'll live to see Ami'ree grow Doing something more constructive With his time than what i show Big brother hold your head I can't wait to see you home Since i'm living out your dream I'mma make it for us both My rabbit ear pockets turned dollars Turned wallets turned credit i got it Watch a prophet be a profit Since i dropped out of school Lost every girl lost every job Caught covid twice Thought that i would die I prayed i cried in denial i lied When people asked i always Fake smiled i'm fine Cause the toughest times i had Built my character Multiple pills on my dresser Had me acting up Devil on my shoulder Had to tell him back it up If it wasn't in my interest Had to pass it up And i found new ways to shake My patterns up God grace seems to always Have the magic touch Used to wanna slit my wrists Now i got all hands on deck Now i see what matters And it's adding up I'm thankful for these memories of pain And i'm grateful for the outcome of my ways Mercy And i'm never going back to what broke me I'm just glad for what it did show me Mercy I'm thankful for these memories of pain And i'm grateful for the outcome of my ways Mercy And i'm never going back to what broke me I'm just glad for what it did show me Mercy I been through mad different phases Like mazes to find my way Regretting how i never Gave the lord my time a day My year was full of pain and trauma What i'm tryna say You can't imagine what i saw Behind designer shades Got loose screws And it's hard to recoup Pain of hearing the news Of my brother shot on the roof Playing every moment back At his funeral too His arms crossed And i'm still wishing that the shit wasn't true In the midst of that While i'm begging god for answers I had to see my mom's cry Cause my pops got cancer Then the girl i loved left me And bounced even quicker So many secrets i only told To my weed and my liquor And when it rains it really pours Got me praying on the floor I can't eat i can't sleep I can't take this shit no more My cousin now gone and that's the worst news ever And for the nigga that killed her He better hope i don't catch him No mercy