In the Center

Gotta find a way to keep my head up In this I've witnessed So many sentenced To death And the shit ain't finished My life Is barely starting The heights Are seeing the people Who cried In front of my loved ones who've died Move on and smile away And go see brighter days Look inside and ease the pain The ones we've lost can't stress enough For us to laugh and gain Everything they couldn't Reach And break the cycles They went through from childhood Traumas The struggles of money and honor No father No mother The only son or a daughter Mental illness will haunt ya I've seen it snatch em in plain sight All because a relationship was too toxic You must Find a need for suicide But trust It isn't worth it And I guarantee you leaving her Would've ended up For the better But What do I know I'm not you Right Overall though dawg hope you had fun Shooting guns With me and getting drunk Pedals bloom up from my feet While I stand A breeze From underneath The ground Move Loved Ones That are 6 feet deep Right in front of me In the Center Of the sound 01 22 2023 My grandpa passed away I lost my shit entirely This is the first time that I truly experienced loss See life don't prep you for that shit Until that point my spoiled ass had the thoughts But I tried suppressing them all 4AM got the call From my cousin, brother and mom Said John He's gone I was asleep Still drunk and high From one memorable night But I sobered up real quick Told my chick She gotta drive Blank staring at street lights Going down the highway Feeling dead inside We arrived Pulled up I saw my cousin first He made it worse And then I saw the man That lead a legacy Now dead and gone I didn't know what to expect I didn't know how to react For a sec Then it hit me