LOST

I don't know know how it seems ,But I try so hard it bleeds My emotions they cut deep ,Yea there terrifying me It's so hard to just explain ,why can't they just go away Why can't they just stay inside And never leave my mind It hurt so bad I cried I gave you all my time And you just lied I did everything I could Hoping I could still do more Till you walked right out that door I'd of stayed rain or poor Not trying to express myself anymore l Cause I'm not like anyone else It's messed up my mental health I guess I'm lost In my thoughts ,or in my mind I'm usually always on the grind But I just Couldn't find the time Depression gets you at the worst time And I don't need to sit here and tell you that in a whole rhyme Cause I've tried And I've cried Felt out of times Just realised ,I Just need an escape Somewhere out of this place Somewhere I can feel sane SomeWhere I can just go away Out of this place It really gets to you you know Felt Broken down Like the broken record inside my chest Couldn't even be protected by this bullet proof vest It's hard to explain and yet I tried to give you my best And everything I could Yet I guess I just weren't giving you enough My time be getting consumed Yet I'd of gave it all to you Every minute every second Man, I never learn my lesson I'm not the type to just give up But this really sucks These emotions are all new Got me lost inside my head Would it be better if I was dead? Maybe sad but Is it true I just don't know what to do Because I've tried And I've cried Felt out of times Just realised ,I Just need an escape Somewhere out of this place Somewhere I can feel sane SomeWhere I can just go away Out of this place You were an escape for me Made me feel like myself Even when I started feeling like I was someone else It's hard for me ,to write this all down And tell you,I felt out of bounds lost inside my own head And My anxiety be getting worse So I put it in a verse I could go to you , when I was on a dark place Helped me find an escape Even when I should of stayed My emotions were getting hazed Felt out of mind ,and lost in my own thoughts Am I wasting my time You were that light for me at the end of my dark tunnel When I needed to be safe Needing an escape Looking for that release, even though my emotions were terrifying me making me feel lost ,and not in control, Of my own thoughts