Deja Vu(the return)

I see y'all ain't gon miss me til I'm gone Don't want no one showing up To my funeral Let me die alone Alive right now Ain't no one hitting my phone Alone right now smoking this weed Inhaling it through my nose Closing my eyes I feel at peace I see y'all ain't gon miss me til I'm gone Don't want no one showing up To my funeral Let me die alone Alive right now Ain't no one hitting my phone Alone right now smoking this weed Inhaling it through my nose Closing my eyes I feel at peace When I was growing up I craved approval Whether that was from family or peers Constantly being shut out from popularity Really all I needed was a soul to see All this pain I'm holding onto Thought that the love would save me From going under down the deep end Elementary school I was fighting demons 6th grade I was talking wit the devil Too much going on in my head Remember sneakin out an gettin in trouble Parents think I'm out fucking thots Taking drugs an drinkin bottles f*ck a shot Just wanna walk and clear my mind Isolated sitting at da park perfecting art Can't lie Sometimes I'd go chill wit da homies Just tryna feel free from restraints F*ck the cards I was dealt throw it away Work my way up again dealer need a hand Been here before deja vu Ain't we been here before This time sleeping in the car f*ck the ground Thinking wasting my life away needa pound I see y'all ain't gon miss me til I'm gone Don't want noone showing up To my funeral Let me die alone Alive right now Ain't no one hittin my phone Alone right now smoking this weed Inhaling it through my nose Closing my eyes I feel at peace I see y'all ain't gon miss me til I'm gone Don't want noone showing up To my funeral Let me die alone Alive right now Ain't no one hittin my phone Alone right now smoking this weed Inhaling it through my nose Closing my eyes I feel at peace I just don't fit in I'm okay with that All I need is music Baby don't forget that Music takes control Always has my soul I can't ever let it go Baby don't never forget that I got a got legacy I'm tryna get at Everyday I'm decaying I gotta get back All this new music I'm hearing is whack Writing up my own niggas talkin smack I'm not in it looking for fucking drip Glorifying the hood and hood nigga shit I'm talking let's save the hood shit Good for the mind Time to heal move forward shift This is my world as much as yours Can't tell me nothing bitch I can take whatever the f*ck I want I got that ability I mean just look at me You know it when you see me I wasn't meant to be a normal guy You can feel my energy when I walk in It's amazing and beautiful isn't it Almost too comforting People think I'm plotting on em Tryna get something from em My message my entity flies right by them Like a demon jumped right up in em I see all the pain I feel what you scared to say It hurts my brain you run away You will never understand I'm the one the only spoke about so holy Turn water to wine and make bread You might not see it now it's coming ahead