Too Fast

I just don't get it It just happened too fast I didn't even get a second to ask If doing more Would end up changing the past Or if I'm really just that trash Predetermined to crash I just don't get it It just happened too fast I didn't even get a second to ask If doing more Would end up changing the past Or if I'm really just that trash Predetermined to crash I wanna know how you really felt Like a week prior Conversations of future plans when We retire Conversations of "move back in when You're rehired" I wanna know when the simulation Got rewired I wanna know if I didn't move back to Denver If we'd fade off like an ember As something we didn't remember Spent seven months away By myself last December Just to lose it all again And lose you when I lose my temper I'm really sorry For saying things I regret For disrespecting you in ways That you couldn't ever forget For disrespecting you in ways That you couldn't ever forgive For all the hurt I put you through And for all the shit that I did For being blunt And being short of the man You want from the kid I understand what you require Is something I couldn't give I understand you gave your all And I always still I asked for more I just don't get how so much love Would always turn into war I shoulda listened when you told me We loved each other for no reason Conversations that quickly turned into cold treason Conversations that quickly turn into gold kisses I wear your name due conversations That sold wishes I'll never get it It all happened too fast I had the time I had like 6 years to ask Coulda done more For us to erase the past And every time you gave a chance I'd end up failing the task