i won't be happy with myself

I wanted to cry There's nothing brand new Always wanted to die There's nothing brand new Always wanted to be on my own But now no one wants me I don't want to be all alone "Nobody wants you" they tell me Several hours in depression They can't handle me Tired of all the voices in my head What's the point of living if I can't find a Friend to rely on A bed so warm to lie on A place where I can feel safe And to block out all the demons Pray to God that I'll be fixed Because I know I won't be perfect I dream to be celebrities I know I won't succeed Wrap myself around the finger of the devil in disguise Hurt me once, maybe twice Maybe fought myself a few times I know I won't be good enough for everyone around me Maybe I should give up Maybe I should die tonight I pray that I'll be saved again Running away from all my problems, yeah If I can't vent to you then I won't be so happy with myself The worlds messed up Stabbings left right and centre I can't live my life without sadness Isolation ain't doing it They still continue when they're out of it It's so loud I can't even focus Who the hell decided to play the whistling anyway You're out of your mind I think you're crazy This crowd makes me wanna die anyway I pray that I'll be saved again Running away from all my problems, yeah If I can't vent to you Then I won't be so happy with myself Every-day's a new day Nah it's the same day Friend group hate me So they try their best avoiding me Changed my personality so they really like me I'm in the depressive state Lord let me be free I'm so tired of being down and alone To the point where I'm called I don't pick up the phone I'm going through grief, the 5 stages I can't even cry 'cuz it takes me ages Sorry for everything I've done I guess breathing is something wrong I pray that I'll be saved again Running away from all my problems, yeah If I can't vent to you Then I won't be so happy with myself (So stupid) (You're making no sense) (Leave me alone, I said leave me alone)