Overdue

I'll be lying if I said new year new me, this is just a new approach not a new dream Same old friends not a new team Same old friends Look, Look Twenty twent-two was a weird time I probably prayed more than I ever have And I lost faith bare times I been tested, been rejected But there's a lesson to be learned with every L I was met with Losing touch with the ones I connect with Communication's been getting neglected So I will try be there more in the new year Mum's pain made me wanna shed a few tears Some say, "Sacrifice happiness for dutys And some say, "You got to put yourself first truly" I just say, you got to find balance in this life Everything's cool when you're patterning it right But why do I give advice and hate taking it Tell them don't waste their time, there's no saving him I can only save myself, I put myself in this mud The trauma I ain't addressed is kind of messing me up But I can hold up my hands I've been self reflecting these days, so I know where I stand Amount of grudges that I hold on shh I need to let it go and try make it work That's the role of a man And I'm living with no more regrets this year They're saying keep doing this until the cheques appear Rest assured, I'm far from my best of course I've been working from the day I left the porch It's all timing Mum's first son, I keep shining Watched her go through the most and keep smiling This ain't the life I chose but this the life I know Learned to walk on the tightest rope My guy came home, and then he went inside again They scooped him on Christmas Eve I don't like these feds Writer's block, I couldn't even write a song I had to go through things just to write again And they say, "Start as you mean to go on" Twenty twenty-three I'm so gone It's been overdue, didn't mean to prolong But I just had a lot on my plate I couldn't deal with Probably could've done a lot more and that's the realness And all the Hennessy he poured never healed him If it was a penny for my thoughts, I would probably have a billion And that's real I'll be lying if I said new year new me, this is just a new approach not a new dream Same old friends not a new team Same old friends I'll be lying if I said new year new me, this is just a new approach not a new dream Same old friends not a new team