P.T.S.D.

They say to get the things you want you have to risk it all I been so focused that I don't pick up when family calls I know we need to spend some time I haven't been involved Just know the love is still the same I hope you know my heart And I been sacrificing sleep allot of adderall I can't reflect on anything until I press record I hope it's not for nothing feel like my time is coming Shout out to single mother's out here working doubles Dad was a hustler that's just the mold I come from And I didn't have it all but I was never hungry I had the latest drip in school and we were on a budget Them teachers kicked me out the class I thought that I was funny My grades were good but I guess I was distracting others I chose to run the streets like boy you always into something My cousin took to the corner I'm like where's the money I sold a couple drugs but that life wasn't for me And then I found a 9-5 but that life wasn't for me I tell the truth even when it's ugly ten toes bitch my sneakers muddy When I broke these women didn't want me I put my life inside these lines everything is honest I show support but I feel like my city hating on me I been through things you won't believe even if I told you I thought about taking my life tired of being normal The judge said I was a menace can I be a mogul Go from staring at these walls to a fucking poster God gives the toughest battles to his strongest soldiers Late nights KP loading up the Protools I want my flowers while I'm here don't wait until it's over Robert died and I thought that things would never change Didn't heal just kept checking on my Aunt Renee Kissing bottles tryna ease the pain thinking I should find a better way Cold world and my hearts the same I'm not afraid to say I'm not ok Cigarettes about a pack a day inhale blow the stress away Don't know how much more my lungs can take But that's a story for another day These niggas talk behind my back then smile in my face That's why I keep my circle small so I can see the snakes My life is on display I hope you can relate Everyone's not happy for you that's just what it is They wanna see you doing good but not better than them I was by myself coming up with business plans And it will be same while I'm thumbing through these ends When I was down you turned your back and I will not forget Laughing to the bank it's funny how these people switch I don't associate with fake and I do not pretend Watch out for opposites and if it's ops you miss Then we gone spin again and go and spin again