Fall or Fly Pt. 2

My whole life changed up For two whole years I thought God was tryna play us Really he was sending signs telling me to wake up You ain't around the right people You ain't doing the right things How you think Ima let you win and you ain't made a change But let's rewind the story I'll tell you how just how it started My flow was getting crazy I'm ready to be the topic, of the rap game I had XXL dreams The freshest of the freshman way sharper than any marksmen Built my own team, JoeLyric he standing tall Strategizing 24/7 so I won't fall Fell over myself too many times Stumbled, too many lines Tryna be a force in this rap game Tried to juggle it all did it everything by myself Ain't have the funds for shit so I was locked inside a drought Hit the streets and almost start getting it But didn't go thru My conscience wouldn't let me live wit it So back to square one I'm fucking broke My whole team Yea they broke Some of em just ain't have the drive and Apex ain't for jokes Slipping in depression then Yonna died Awww lawd now I can feel the tears falling down my eyes Locked in wit passive depression ain't know how to grieve When your life is falling in darkness you find it hard to see I thought I hit rock bottom but I barely scratched the surface 2017 gave me impression I was worthless Working a 9-5 to maintain and survive But didn't feel a need cause inside I have died My pipe dream getting thinner The question of will I be another failed rapper No legacy to remember Statistic was haunting me waking me out of my sleep Around the time abel hit me bout a move so we linked Down south like a coke connect The plan seemed obvi If killing these beats ain't work I just might've caught a body Can't Stop Gotta It Mixtape was unfinished Contemplated life or death Who would suffer my remembrance Demons talked to me all the time on a daily Voices in back of my cerebellum drove me crazy All my plans still failing Somehow I'm still trying Finished the tape regardless of who streaming or who buying Marketing backfired Plans they backfired Couldn't call on no one Disconnected my landline Reflections of Tupac Just me against the world But I'm thankful for the struggle Hard times made me thorough When I said I ain't giving up Things start looking up In the stu already Ideas was cooking up I thought JoeLyric was dying he was only evolving Now the posing question when I get my wings I'm done falling Like an avalanche now I'm rising up just like a stock Around the time I spent my days and my nights round Congress Park, I had plans Added Sid to the team lil brother got locked up But out the next day no controversy can stop us Bullets came from cross the street when I was in dead center Barely missed my head I feel blessed to be still living Divine intervention talked to me that was the wake up Everybody meant for something whether it was books or lay up Way under my greatness I was living life basic That's just how the city is it's hard to fight the germs contagious My life was in containment, life sentence from the city nobody wanna hear my plea Before judging at my arraignment Switching up my cadence Beat killer to an A-List Evolved to just An Alias gave me hope I would make it That's really my name my character My lane Was easy to see like tallest mountain same place that I changed Took a leap of faith just praying the wind a catch me Pouring out my truth hoping all you people accept me If I fall wit all my flaws I'm hoping you resurrect me Talking to my Grama she praying the Lord bless me Seen crazy things and it left me traumatized Did crazy things still a saint in mamas eyes I hated me at the bottom I'm loving me as I rise Devil at my door but I'll never let em inside I'll take the second chance and I'll head back to the sky And take the leap of faith forever cause it's Fall or Fly