Chez Nous

In a motel by the metro with my sister and my daddy Playing cards on the floor, watching cable as a family All he could afford was Mickey D's, but those were happy meals Wish I said it to his face, cause I know he carried guilt Barely paid his child support, but still my momma kept it real Let him pick us up on weekends, cause she knew the love he feels Memories so vivid, it feel like just the other day Cops stormed inside the room, cuffed you then took you away Uncle G used to take us up to see you in the cage Talking on the phone and through a glass, I was only eight Barely understood, but now I know the shame you had to face Yeah now I know the dangers of this game I swear I'm moving on, but the pain can't be erased Just a product of my suffering and all of these mistakes Your addiction's living through me, genetics I can't escape Plus we look the fucking same, so it's tough to get away Look inside the mirror, but I see you looking back at Jay We could be twins, but then again so can our sins Like father, like son, when will this cycle ever end Yeah, does this cycle ever end You say you got me, oh you'll never let me go down Yeah you say you got me and you'll never leave me a doubt But I only see my shadow when I look around So tired of the fake love that's around this place Don't bring no fake love when you round my ways My mind is drifting like a piece of paper blowing in the wind Brainstorming so I only feel the rain up on my skin Miss the light from the sun and all the warmth it used to give Dark clouds always hanging around, ain't even paying rent Try to find a silver lining, but my pocket's full of lint Every dollar spent on chasing this dream, ain't that a bitch They tell me keep going cause your boy can really spit They don't see the dollars earned versus dollars being spent Still got support around, I'm grateful for the dollars lent Shit is like the lotto, yeah if we get it, we gon' ball Heart is heavy like the ton of bricks I used to build these walls If my castle ever falls, bury me underneath it I've been living nightmares, they go away when I'm sleeping Medicating myself to deal with the demons All the smoking that I do, really fucked up my breathing I've been going round in circles, there's no rhyme to my reason, yeah You say you got me, oh you'll never let me go down Yeah you say you got me and you'll never leave me a doubt But I only see my shadow, when I look around So tired of the fake love that's around this place Don't bring no fake love when you round my ways You say you got me, oh you'll never let me go down Yeah you say you got me and you'll never leave me a doubt But I only see my shadow, when I look around So tired of the fake love that's around this place Don't bring no fake love when you round my ways