Harder To Reach

I'm doing this shit for myself Been thru hell don't need no help Trying to hard be doing to much Where was you at when I had no one else Man I'm crying to sleep Shit been hard no favors for me Choose this path and it's hard to believe Got off my ass now I'm harder to reach Damn but shit still different Wasn't the shit I intended Love got me hurt now my patience is finished I was down from the start, never heal from those scars And she know who I was cause I never pretended She thought I wasn't committed Now I'm breaking her heart and it wasn't on purpose But I know that shit was worth it And now all the shit I ever did for love is now catching up They said karma is a bitch and she stuck with me so im out of luck Running from my past life, never got to heal so I'm not alright Shit been hard on my life, gotta think once for I lose twice I don't got trust but I got your side Forreal Shit crazy but this is the real I do something right it goes left I'm still tryna see what's the deal And now you gon feel what I feel I'm keeping it real this shit not no bullshit I keep on going through the same shit Im patiently waiting for changes Got off my ass now I'm harder to reach Choose this path and it's hard to believe Shit been hard no favors for me Still not getting no peace I'm trying my best are you riding wit me? I'm out for the top only thing that I seek I want some more guap cause the love not for me And I'm done ran it up you just gotta believe I built all this anger now I gotta let loose I Smoke it away but I'm broken I'm Healing from pain but need closure Thinking bout when I use to be open I go through some tuff times shit insane but I got a smile on my face When I make a mistake people look at me different and i don't ever feel the same Shawty said that I changed up To be real I'm not even surprised I done went through a lot tuff stuff And I know she seen it in my eyes I got my wrist out and my heart cut And somehow she's not satisfied I'm in this cycle now and forever stuck And all I did was waste time damn Been down bad Time is something I never get back I tried to relax but constantly falling I can not control it's hurting me bad I'm missing the love but that shit in the pass I guess that trust been gone I gotta live with the pain while my head running laps But I'm still writing these songs So I'm doing this shit for myself I Been thru hell don't need no help Trying to hard be doing to much Where was you at when I had no one else Man I'm crying to sleep Shit been hard no favors for me Choose this path and it's hard to believe Got off my ass now I'm harder to reach