Family and Friends

Sometimes I feel like no one gets me Like I've been living a whole different life from everyone else And the only way they can see my side is through my music Through listening, truly listening And seeing my brokenness But understanding that I'm doing the best I can Let me tell you 'bout the time back then I had just turned 10 And I knew I was different from the rest I had so much to give And my day had been wasted or ruined If I couldn't have a friend to my left But none of it helped At the end of the day, there was always this fear I was missing on what's next I discovered my attachment to people had come From my need to escape from the fear of being left And I didn't think twice of it Had to force myself to play pretend Got me feeling like Anakin When I felt my emotions take flight I was quick to run away from them Until I realized I need to be by myself Think for myself To find the root of all of my neediness Then after years of life And memories made I realized they weren't even mine I was being who I wanted others to see Never truly letting go of that pressure Never really taking on my dreams Feeling like I'm trapped in a mirror Looking at someone's face But it wasn't really me Wouldn't abandon my ego I built What will others really think? If I chose to do what I wanted in life Would I ever truly be seen? Gotta relax, sit down, take a break From all the fronts and make beliefs All the lives that I perceived but never did Those nights I couldn't sleep, too stressed again Cause I was just a kid Finding his place but still felt alone Even with family and friends I don't feel right Seems like I'm broken in my head When I do right, I've already left looking for the next Can't satisfy my thirst When I fail I feel a mess Cause I never learned to cope with not being a success It really is a problem, and it scares me to death Never win, never get all I want and the rest So to lose, to fail, I don't know how to adapt Then I feel like I failed those around me, not myself I'm motivated by what others seem to think Comparison's making me wrestle With who I wanna be Chasing somebody else's dream Not my own But I see the light at the end of the mess I've made And it's calling out to me I've got your back follow me But in the past I wouldn't listen Cause I was being who I wanted others to see Never truly letting go of that pressure Never really taking on my dreams Feeling like I'm trapped in a mirror Looking at someone's face But it wasn't really me Wouldn't abandon my ego I built What will others really think? If I chose to do what I wanted in life Would I ever truly be seen? Gotta relax, sit down, take a break From all the fronts and make beliefs All the lives that I perceived but never did Those nights I couldn't sleep, too stressed again Cause I was just a kid Finding his place but still felt alone Even with family and friends I look into the mirror Don't recognize Unfamiliar I know you're somewhere in there Just come out I'm waiting