Expressively Distant

I've never been one to talk about myself But I guess I'll open up And I hope to God this helps How can I express myself? Is there something wrong with me? How can I express myself? Is it bursting at the seams and I'm just blind? I'm sure you've noticed how the first four minutes of this song I only had a few words to say Well, that's my mind in a nutshell A constant jam of a song And all I wanna do is air drum to the beat in my head It makes it hard to repeat the words you've said It's not that I don't wanna listen, I just can't And it makes me feel so different It makes me wonder if there's something wrong with me And how can I express myself When I can barely keep up with the hand I'm dealt? I can't keep conversation And I can barely convey just how I feel When others do nice things for me It shows my insecurities I try to hide I'm so fucking pathetic Okay, well maybe I'm not But I can't help how I feel about myself I'm so expressively distant Why am I so different? Is there something wrong with me? I've got a lot of heavy weight on my shoulders And I gotta get it off I need to figure out just who I am And where I belong I'm just being honest with myself For the first time in a long time And I can't help but feel these certain ways But if it takes me breaking down a little And coming clean I swear I'm not trying to be mean I see it as a form of therapy And God I need this As I'm trying to find where I'm supposed to be