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Most teenagers start off with marijuana, then they decide to see if heroin has any kick It does Sometimes it only takes a few days to find out they can't leave it alone In order to get money to buy it, they turn to crime And that's the story There are practically no happy endings when you fool with drugs F*ck Pour some more Smoking the green 'til I feel numb Passing out in the back of an Uber Blame myself for shit that I've done My parents know they raised a screw up Same mistake, same damn place Pop one more, can't feel my face Constant torment, no escape Sometimes I wish it was laced Nightmares vivid, looping trips Broken record, clueless bitch I can't stop, two more sips Another teen, who's at risk Sometimes I write a certain track I'm proud of this art, I know I snapped Couple listens later, shit's sounding whack What did it lack? When will I get energy back? My nana used to say, "the more you put in, the more you get out" When will I figure this out? What's more I'm in a drought No matter what it's about, what comes out my mouth I don't get back what I'm contributing out So I started to doubt, not about clout Dropping a tab, seeing a dream Loops in my head, why do they scream? Fucked from birth, tendencies of OCD Only 15 and you scarred me Begging you please F*ck out of my life, permanently Tears in my eyes, lump in my throat Used to fly, now I just float Stop the fight, got no more hope Reaching heights, on my own Her beautiful eyes have caught me lately The perfect girl, Patrick Bateman Bit my tongue, no more statements Give her love, but filled with hatred I can't fake it, call me crazy The future of us, I feel it fading Sink through the couch, my mind is gone Things get calm before the storm Split in two, I've been torn One side empty, one side warm Ten cones later, don't feel nun Shit is broken, make me numb No escape from my mind Only you can make me one Stay right here, for a while Only you can give me love Yeah, real shit, ay, yeah, f*ck