Grocery Store Gin

Thought I'd find myself at the end of the bottle Of your grad school roommate's grocery store gin Thought I'd find a glimpse of what's nearly forgotten Ended up at the bar with the misfits the cynics and has beens Ordered breakfast at midnight The diner off Prince Street Wandered home under street lights and stared at the moon Stumbled back to the bedroom and gazed at the top sheet Locked eyes with the dent in the mattress that should've been you I've been drinking alone as of late Lock myself in the bathroom and try not to break Into a million pieces I love you but Jesus Why the f*ck Did you have to leave? Wish I could cry but I just feel like screaming I don't wanna be sad anymore but I hate feeling numb For the first couple days I would wake up and think I'd been dreaming Till I picked up the phone and the shaking returned to my thumbs I catch glimpses of you in the streets of our hometown It's funny how memories return when the leaves start to fall I try to distract myself try to come up with some new sound Start to believe I can handle the weight of it all I've been sleeping alone since you left And my friends and my family say its for the best But I don't think they're right Cause I'm up every night Wishing that I Would've been better for you I've been thinking of all I did wrong How the best I can do is to write you this song But I wish I could change Half the words that I say I wish I had done better for you