coping mechanism

(Trynna focus on my breathing) Roll and light a spliff Til' I set adrift across the sea Without a ship Flight was missed Now I see my destiny Ocean of darkness No Notion of caution No Closing the faucet The emotion is constant Drowning Wait, I need a hand Bound to fate I need a plan Crowd too late to seek some fans Found some haze to feel again Lungs congested From the drugs ingested Some bugs have nested In the wrong direction And it's from depression Cause my mental's buggin, G It can switch suddenly From the shit I'm juggling Anxious, Feeling pissed off Faithless, Deal with it wrong Tasteless, Drink the fifth gone Aimless, Brink of lift off Entree with some garnishes What's on my plate astonishes All families break their promises To me, it's straight synonymous I just make some soliloquies Break down from no one hearing me Wake up to my thoughts, eerily Insane how much I'm fearing me Fake it til' you make it, right? Wake and bake The Jay I light Aching from the pain I fight Hate the place I stay at night David was so great and wise Shaken from the day he died Laid in bed His face was white "Save him, please!" I prayed and cried God, help my mama She don't deserve this The trauma served with drama Makes me nervous Searching for the purpose Hurting, feeling worthless Serpents on the surface Lurking acting perfect Working on diversions Roll and light a spliff Til' I set adrift across the sea Without a ship Flight was missed Now I see my destiny Ocean of darkness No Notion of caution No Closing the faucet The emotion is constant