The Art of Detachment

I'm tryin' to...I'm tryin' to I'm tryin' to...find my out of this darkness It's like I'm lost & gone in the process But...something has to change before I lose my soul Need my guardian angel now...tell me where did they go Reflecting in my solitude...I need you so To tell you all my secrets & to hold you close Like I'm tired of being in this dark mood Too far gone I don't know what to do soon, just wanna be alone So...I don't wanna come out my room, please leave it at the doorway I know I need your company...can't get up out my own way Maybe I will soon...or maybe I will one day I've been blaming what I know, on everyone that I ghost If they don't understand or don't know Prefer they leave with the door closed, & I have no patience For love that's wasted, or time that's taken, so I'm mistaken It's like I want you right here...right here next to me But I just wanna be alone...would you please just let me be & I don't know...I feel alone, I'm so alone, no no...no & it's like...like no one understands me...you know? I'm in the dark now with...no company No...light in sight if...I could only see No...energy left I don't even care to eat Left my phone on silent but they keep on callin' me All the days I have detached from everyone & I know this is an issue only to some As if it's never been a struggle when I run Will you please help me?, I know this ain't healthy & as so many come & go, it's no wonder I don't know Left confused & all alone, cuz I hurt those that are close Am I wrong? Yes, But I'm just being honest, with all my flaws I've been blaming what I know, on everyone that I ghost If they don't understand or don't know Prefer they leave with the door closed, & I have no patience For love that's wasted, or time that's taken, so I'm mistaken It's like I want you right here...right here next to me But I just wanna be alone...would you please just let me be & I don't know...I feel alone, I'm so alone, no no...no & it's like...like no one understands me...you know? I got these 4 walls around me conversating everyday Talkin' to myself in my room all alone with my mistakes Trying to think outside my mind or somehow find a way I need a change or escape a way out of this dark place No no...I'm so cold...I feel alone...alone... You know and it's like...after a while...you get so used to being alone It's like...I may start to like this...please help me get out of this, out of my own way Of pushing you away...pushing everyone away...please?