AJW

Search for a savior Searched for myself in this bottle of yauger Numerous errors as I'm compiling the data My funds are running low the realization is fatal The doubt eats away it's been altering my trajectory I've noticed I'm harping on my subconscious excessively Ego and pride is making one disastrous recipe Is it my drive determination tired of questioning things I'm intrigued by your perception of me I can see your thinking lesser of me tell me would you accept me with all of my flaws Or Would you push me to be all you know I can be And at the times when I needed your congratulation's It's only me and this cup for all my celebrations This life I'm living ain't been feeling celebratory I'm Still having trouble withholding my procrastination Vacating the premises is my newest vacation Made that move in a business sense my sanity's aching I'm growing more tentative with the fact I can make it Or maybe it's the devil on my shoulder whos playing Or me not believing the angel and all relayed to me I look around and no one else is here in this cage with me Ill wait for judgment day and I stopped judging myself And just prepare for either heaven or hell Ace world that means more to me than my life Times we never got to have it isn't sitting right Never gave you recognition determination uplifting our spirits how this could happen can't be justified I guess I'll have to roll the dice And take a chance that ima see you in another life Or in heaven when my time comes Know all of us want our ones I need somebody else that your sister autumn can bother Won't get the chance to see how you'd be as a father or go to places that me and you never thought that we'd be going but nevertheless I digress Thought shit was good then got hit with reality check It made me question this thing I pursue the doubt emits It made think bout what I should've did could've did I Didn't even see your crib when you were moving in And when I did it was to move the things you left in it Look I can't wait to mention you in every single speech Every important occasion gotta reserve the seat because of you I see how strong your mother truly is All this pain thank god here's something I can do with it I hope that everything is truly how you hoped it was Know we weren't always the closest while we were growing up As we matured in this life I realized you is that nigga But right now I wish you took the time to reconsider Ace world that means more to me than my life do the worst to bring you back I'd make the sacrifice I try my hardest not to drink so I'll feel pacified Again I'm seeing what this life shits like desensitized Even now I feel as if I haven't woken up Was getting good was getting close I wasn't close enough Know we should talk about our problems as they corner us I've also found that nowadays you can't afford to trust Heart broken but more than anything disappointed When I drive past 7/16 I wish you were home Knowing you'll never be there is getting so annoying I'd Walk into it give your flowers what your truly owed Now hear me out I'll be rich one day and I promise you It's just a shame when I do you won't reap the benefits You've always wanted to see heaven how's it feel to you Think you should know that the world is yours as I live in it Hope you can hear this shit I'll see shit through like if I don't you'll never live again