Dissociation

I'm tired of myself It's not your fault it's mine, nobody else I'm always my undoing This is to you, hope this helps I can't act like the regular humans I fear that the only thing I know Is emotion through the medium of music And my homes in the crescendos I don't blame you for finding me crazy I'm still trying to crack the code Every noise to me's like a reminder That I'm not from here, not home So when you find me ready willing and desiring I fear that it's in my nature When the trees drop leaves and the world gets wiry I know my new name, it's winter I could keep pushing on but everyone's doing it I prefer to pull away Tried to change my mind, but no matter where I travel I'm still right here in the same state Are you trying to change me? who sent you? I know There's people trying to figure me out I can't see them, so just tell me that you'll help me what i need's bigger than love right now I have a lot of questions, like why am I so foolish I'm trying hard to overcomplicate So when you talk to me, don't call me human That's one of the words I hate and I don't hate a lot but I loathe very many It's okay if it doesn't make sense How do morals pertain to this place that I'm placed in If this place's favorite word is except And I don't think I'm meant For this place, cause I dread Every time that I have to go out But I think that you get The words are stuck in my head I weave a web I think I call it my mouth So when I write to you, only thing that I care about is That you want to help me be free Cause I hate the people that come from the places That exist just to plague me