Smoke

What a mistake it was telling me I don't look as happy as I used to then, That's ironic coming from someone who was happy just to watch me crash and burn instead I never understood your petty little lies And you testing my patience time after time But you still hide behind your bottles of wine Until you "just want to swing by mine" You're always talking about trust and respect But the hypocritical nature of what happens next When you say you're only having 'Just a bit of phone sex' (I'm only having just a bit of phone sex) But the conversation states you wanna get in his bed So I lie to myself and I tell you that it's okay Stabbing myself in back I'm just trying to get my bills paid So take your clothes and go, I really do not want to know I'll write my fucking rhymes and tell the world that you're the reason I smoke to choke all the memories of us I get high just to come down from cloud nine I'm sitting on the sidelines of my own life as your taunts they cut me like a bread knife Venomous eyes, poisoning my life Whilst the negativity just keep growing in size And your star sign's Gemini, your dual faced lies Set me burning like a fire through the wildlife And I was at your place, every single day Until you'd 'go and hit the gym' and I'd finally get a break When I was out the other night and I saw a familiar face Was it you with another man or the ghost of us, babe looking on at it now, I was a little bit jealous Overzealous is what i'd call myself while I was in my shell But exhaustion was kicking in and I left you for someone else In my memory I was hoping I could find my better self And I still don't get it, how you pack up and you leave And you cheat and you cry and keep on deceiving, I've heard it from other guys We talk about your lies, behind your back, but isn't that what you did a thousand times to me? Now you'll see what a real man can do with a voice and a song, thought I'd leave it? you knew that I'd wait 'till I'd a platform And you said I'd never make it, you're wrong! Here's your song And it starts by telling everyone I smoke to choke all the memories of us I get high just to come down from cloud nine I'm sitting on the sidelines of my own life as your taunts they cut me like a bread knife Venomous eyes, poisoning my life Whilst the negativity just keep growing in size And your star sign's Gemini, your dual faced lies Set me burning like a fire through the wildlife Telling myself I wanna be alone I don't care about you dreams and I don't care if you're at home And the way that you've been acting, like a dog to a bone The only difference is you threw it, now you're calling my iPhone And you move on pretty quick, that was hard to admit But you're gone and you're wrong And I don't give a shit. Will you just get a grip, 'cause I'll make this one quick If you want my admission here it comes I'll admit That sure I wasn't great, and I'll admit to my mistakes, I lied, I never tried and I was out to help myself I might admit that I was wrong when all our love was falsified And I was hiding from the truth, but then again it's what I had to do. You never gave me grace, we never made a time or place, we tried to work but that was every day, and I was checking out again I should have really tried, believe me, I was justified And when I ended things I never felt so fucking alive and now I I smoke to choke all the memories of us I get high just to come down from cloud nine I'm sitting on the sidelines of my own life as your taunts they cut me like a bread knife Venomous eyes, poisoning my life Whilst the negativity just keep growing in size And your star sign's Gemini, your dual faced lies Set me burning like a fire through the wildlife Telling myself I wanna be alone I don't care about you dreams and I don't care if you're at home And the way that you've been acting, like a dog to a bone The only difference is you threw it, now you're calling my iPhone And you move on pretty quick, that was hard to admit But you're gone and you're wrong And I don't give a shit. Will you just get a grip, 'cause I'll make this one quick If you want my admission, nah I'm done, so f*ck this