sleep away

I don't like who I used to be But I'm almost eighteen and I'm still tryna find out who to be Life's still feelin' new to me Me and the old me is like if there's two of me But we're one in the same 'Cause everything's changed but nothin' has changed I am such a burden for everyone I talk to To everyone, I promise that it's me and not you That's real, I still feel certain ways I'm always lookin' up but there are certain days when I When I feel down On the raps, it's hard to keep it real now 'Cause I'm rappin' 'bout money and girls I don't get But I enjoy it, it helps me feel confident That's real But am I a fake? Sometimes I don't even know why I'm awake And I've stopped postin' so much on socials Because I get too addicted and that feeds my antisocial nature And I always struggle wonderin' if talkin' openly Is somethin' I should do 'cause then people will tell me who I'm supposed to be I would love to make more songs like this but I feel like don't have anything deep to say So I'll stay wonderin' who to be today Like I said, I don't know why I be awake So ima go sleep away