Not That Great

I tried imagining What would happen if I told all my secrets to you like a man again I'd try to tell you why I could tell a lie Cuz I been learning from my dad yeah he's the lying type And I don't know what else to do And I can't find the words to say I can't be honest with you And that might have to be ok I get hung up on the past Tend to over complicate Then I look back and feel bad And I try to compensate So maybe I'm not that great And maybe I'm jealous too I put the blame on someone else like it's a good excuse I wish I was not this way And maybe you're too damaged too I know it hurts you when I say it love But maybe I'm not good enough for you Oooh Oooh Oooh Had an epiphany So don't be mad at me Cuz I would hate to end this story as a tragedy The way I criticize Is from my mother's side I think her love language just might be to antagonize And I don't know what else to do And I can't find the words to say I can't be honest with you And that might have to be ok I get hung up on the past Tend to over complicate Then I look back and feel bad And I try to/and compensate So maybe I'm not that great And maybe I'm jealous too I put the blame on someone else like it's a good excuse I wish I was not this way And maybe you're too damaged too I know it hurts you when I say it love But maybe I'm not good enough for you Oooh Oooh Oooh