Walking In My Footsteps (feat. Jason Chu)

Trying to edit less, no need to proofread My life loosely based on doodles strewn on loose leaf If you truly knew me you'd know my childhood runs through me You can call me Jack back then I was Drewsy Bluesy Summertime pool rat, my skin was chlorinated Reflected so many parts of me all incorporated So go with the flow like my life force was corrugated Accidental happiness, never joy formulated My biggest strength was lack of fear Too young to know better My whole life ahead, green lights Go getter Do good and be good were the guidelines I flowed better Love the comfort but I'm itching like an old sweater Childhood reflections trapped in the waves Craving wisdom I had but deployed at the wrong age Time so distant but never more relevant Secret codex to defining all of my elements Hot summer light's feeling like a sauna Drinkin til late at night, I'll be gone by tomorrow but You in my aura, your flora is in my garments If I'm shining in the city you taught me fluorescence Not a city boy - but I came up hot Grew up in cul-de-sacs and not blocks Felt Lost, had to escape, plotted a route Either get up, get out, or get caught Yeah That's what it felt like anyway I knew Wilmington Delaware wasn't the place I had to stay Stray dog, make art, same song, took long, took heart, got strong, I came home Parked the car by the yard, near the cemetery Autumn air, crunchy leaves seem so necessary Land of hallowed halls, bloodlines, hereditary Origin of my diffidence, fear of ordinary The past and the present get together start to pair up Nostalgia swallows me, like I'm trapped in a bear hug Memories so vivid like i'm walking on a movie set Present now, but in the past I only used the future tense So worried about what would be or what could happen That I missed my whole senior year, no second-half action Do I suffer from depression or deluded expectation What would have happened if I skipped that medication? Sometimes I dream that I'll be asked back to campus Give me fresh minds, and I'll have my damn canvas Tell every student to challenge their own perceptions Admissions is cool, but it has nothing on self-acceptance Walking around the campus like a lonely ghost Why these roads and alleyways still hold me close Why no breakfast as dope as momma's cinnamon toast Guess the roots still hold despite the newer growth I'm a Hockessin boy, 302, that's me Tatted on the neck on my left where my heart beats, cut me I bleed blue and gold that's UD, spent time there even if we didn't go university Universally, all cultures recognize Our ties to the ground and the land of our lives Where ghosts of ancestors And past selves reside Time travelin my kicks resemble Marty McFlys I'm not wise yet But being here reveals the spIne of My Mindset Bein me is really the product of my environment I'm talking Damini, Useff, Sheel, Ryan and Brett Homies I carry I ain't banging but they in my blood Evry beat and every breath I breath it's not just mine its ours Walkin through the streets, every intersection etched in my body I realized this is the place that taught me what it means - to love